Inked

Like a needle slipping into my skin 

Pricking it breaking it 

until each nerve 

was jumping 

alive feeling each moment Bubbling scabbing and slowly..

little by little turning into a beautiful one of a kind of us..

Outlining our love 

A pattern all of its' own 

Running deep from the inside out..

Displayed for the world to see

flowing through my veins 

Landing in my heart

Permanent markings 

stretching bending with life weathering it all.. 

Though It may smear fade

and lose some of its' outward beauty 

You Keep my love so young so new

my stained heart bleeds only your name..

I wear you.. 

marked by indelible designs of your love

Dancing through it..

Dancing Through It..

With every broken mile she walked 

She melded into the very ground below her..

Anguish & despair burying her deeper with each step 

Hopelessness scratched and clawed until She was raw numb..

Unsure what she believed 

A strong mind pressing on

She kept reaching out..

Like a lost child 

afraid - yet certain something worthwhile awaited her..

Innocence still breathing within her heart

searching for her own something 

She wished for more 

She wished to be loved 

Wished to believe it tangible..

Unsure of what 'it' really meant

She danced through her tears..

That Flicker of hope setting ablaze a wild fire in her..

she knew what her something was..

It is She

She is the real thing 

She will be stubborn love refusing to believe she has no place

It is real and can be rough 

but the music beckons her..

As she tentatively sways to the sound 

She feels gentle hands wrap around her face 

whispering 

This is for you 

You are worth it 

There is a place for She..

It's Simple

Needing.. Wanting 

Wanting.. Needing 

Some say it's the same 

I say not..

Learned early on

Thought I needed my parents..

Until i didn't.. 

then I knew

The difference..

Set me free to love without expectations

Love is a gift 

And what a gift

When I met you

You intrigued me

I liked you

You moved to my beat

I chose you 

You are my kind of crazy

Not because I needed you 

Because I want you 

not a dependent love..

I can breath on my own 

or a need to be filled.. 

you aren't medicine 

So simple.. 

It is purest love that keeps me wanting you 

That draws me in 

Sets me on the highest highs 

A mind lost in the thought of you 

Allows my heart happiness

My soul complete freedom..

No limits no rules no walls

To love you 

Is to love with complete abandon..

Setting me free in the want of you ❤️

RunWildLiveFree

RunWildLiveFreeLoveStrong

She sits alone unaware 

lost 

only seeing darkness surrounding her..

until she realizes she is squinting 

Beams of golden sunlight covering her face 

her eyes seeing feeling forcing her out of the abyss..

Bodies are moving 

Carefree running wild 

smiles laughter

happy moments it seems..

Her eyes suddenly wet

tears springing her to life..

Where did it all go?

Is it true time saps it from us?

Or did she just give it away 

Willingly unwillingly unaware 

Taking for granted such a gift..

simple Joy

Allowing it to dissipate..

Slowly disappearing like the days of her youth..

Sadness happiness

Hope despair 

Trying moments 

exhausting ones 

impossible ones

giving up

Can't see past this moment ones..

They hurt 

can Break us down

But Only for a moment 

it won't destroy our fight..

Uncertainty can draw out our strength 

No matter that fear is intertwined with it..

Untwist your thoughts change up your beliefs 

creating new hope 

New joys smiles laughter 

a carefree heart is born 

The gift of loving life takes over 

The good moments burying the bad 

She wants that..

She shakes loose the dirt she's been breathing 

Leaving the shackles behind 

Running wild 

Getting lost in those happy moments 

It's her story 

One more chance to dream again through a young heart..

She can write a new beginning any time she wants..

Celebrate Us Home

My Eyes atrophying losing sight of the living 

your eyes crystal clear filled with hope..

My nerves on edge straining to hear any remnants of life

Beautiful face smiling at every sound you hear and

Legs free to move about

While my walk is bound with legs that betray me 

Twisted face scrawled with anger remembering all things that once were..

Each moment new to you 

Happiness etched on your face..

Anger hurt frustration have taken root in my home 

You are lost in a far better place 

Your smile exuding peace..

I want us 

Your steady soft hand slowly touching me 

calming my frustration 

releasing my anger 

covering my hurt

Reminiscing 

I want the magic of you

I am the air you breathe 

Such Memories..good&bad 

Moments of love shared

hearts Synced 

Never outgrowing us

I'll carry you&you carry me 

Celebrating 

Till we draw our last breath 

Our tenderness never extinguished 

substance of our profound love carried on through six beautiful souls 

We are never-ending❤️

 

Madness of Love

Dreams

bringing to life hope..

Stories written about it 

Movies made about such things..

What magic have you over me..

Drawing tears of joy from deep within

An unending well of love

Bringing to life my senses

Gently softly calling forth my closed heart

Tentative at first 

then bursting wide open 

as a chasm that couldn't contain the pressures built around it..

eliciting every emotion from me all at once

spilling out the tenderest of love 

invisible arms wrapping   around me tenderly 

The bitter sting of fear fading 

slowly lifting me out of such despair

It takes my breath away 

Leaving me filled with wonder 

with awe..

The mystery of you 

causing such a stir 

My heart expanding and contracting to the rhythm of your love 

How can this 

Beautiful madness be

That I am worthy of such adornment 

To be Cherished treasured..

miracles are real 

For here you are..

and I am certain i was made for a moment such as this..

Kaleidoscope

Jarring stunning 

Violent 

Collision of the hearts

Fatal 

Shattered glass scattered everywhere - shining beautifully 

Deceptive 

You're here in my waking moments 

and crashing through my dreams 

dancing on 

my battered heart

Did I love too much 

How did I miss it..

Unraveled and broken 

Left me naked

Exposed

No disguising the bruises

Do you know what I know

Do you know what I feel 

Or was it all one sided..

I was your stomping ground 

Each turn revealing a 

beautiful shade more intoxicating than the last..

Simply having me for a good time..

I wasn't afraid to fall..

Well now I'm no longer petrified to stand tall

Dusting you off with each step 

my colors coming back 

No longer blue

My shades speak the truth 

Heart bleeds red

unlike your Kaleidoscope that beats quietly deceptively cunningly

so many mirrors 

you're lost trapped in between them.. 

until each one slowly cracks 

giving way to a cascade of jagged broken glass.. 

Burying you 

Let the pen flow..

thoughts are.. can be 

a gift, a guilty pleasure, a friend 

Bringing to light forgotten blessings 

Hidden treasures 

Things dreamed of..

thoughts are sometimes a foe

releasing things buried 

Things unknown fears pain uncertainties..

Complex emotions ideas become our thinking 

becoming our muse..

love hate happiness anger strength power fear weaknesses..

Revealing the beauty of the human mind and all its' worth..

No matter the emotions evoked 

Or how much time passes in between writings

passion shared through writing is beautiful 

food for the soul 

And 

I fall in love with it every time my hand gives in to the pen..

Entangled

Just the thought of you 

Takes me back 

When I see your face it stands me still 

searing through to my soul..

Safely nestled deep within your cocoon of love i was..

Until it disintegrated into dirt and dust 

evaporating into the abyss..

Didn't I leave it all behind 

on my way to new beginnings..

Oh I could fall again so easily 

Memories coming alive 

Your touch your feel 

All to real

entrapping my heart like prey

So painful to be 

entangled in your snare..

So good at spinning that web you are

Wrapped so tight 

Devouring me at will

I lost sight 

though I may wear scars that bleed 

I found my way out 

And see clearly now 

your silken threads..

P

Veiled Eyes

Let me see what I choose to see

Believe what I want 

Feel what I feel 

It is real alive consuming 

if only for a moment 

It's my fire

Let it burn

slow & painful or

wild out of control 

A fire is still a fire 

snuffing out life..

Is it worth it?

a river of delight 

That I might live

A heart of laughter 

Joy captured 

Troubles miles away

It is worth every second moment & hour..

rearranging my heartstrings 

playing a new melody

don't stop the music

heart is singing 

Soul is dancing..

you&me existing

in my shrouded eyes..

Changing Winds..

To want him like him love him

was altogether wonderful..

needing him

Well.. That takes her breath away

Suffocating the truth can be..

never knowing the pain of such loneliness 

heart slamming the wall

slowly painfully covering every inch as it shatters 

Into shards so fine 

She can't feel it..

questioning the existence of it..

Fierce Winds keep blowing bits&pieces of that love every which way 

So scattered weather-beaten

It vanishes into thin air 

She trips about grasping for remnants of that sweet love..

It leads to no where

As if it never was..

It's time 

A moment that defines her

Courageously 

She takes a deep breath 

trying to fill up her hollow heart..

Too many holes as she realizes 

They never were..

Love Trippin...

A high She can't seem to come down from

Though heights frighten her..

So much unknown to wrestle with

Though Afraid - she keeps following what is Known

the only thing that matters..

Connected hearts living out what they know 

What they feel 

Moment by moment coloring in that elusive rainbow 

in their own way 

Their own time..

Each shade a different story 

Each smile unearthing a special moment

Hundreds of them

telling a life story

One that could only belong to her&him he&she them..

Couldn't do it Alone

No words left to speak

No words needed..

A canvas of his love

With all its' messy wonders 

is painted all over her heart..

Ignited Bones

day in day out 

clock always moving 

with much the same..

No better no worse really..

No man's land 

We can almost forget we exist there 

Until we can't 

that ever-present familiar angst rolling over us again 

We are grateful for these moments I tell myself..

yet waiting hoping 

hungry and anxious for better days 

Can Feel like no one is listening 

The days are not miserable 

Only hard..

Crushing to watch him bear it all 

He aches to wake whole

We ache with him for him..

Watching him fight for 

Yearn for normal life..

disruptive uncomfortable physically and emotionally..

While i watch helplessly 

No saving no rescuing..

He goes it alone moment by moment in his mind..

Never really alone 

Love fuels his weary bones 

While he searches for energy to do more than survive..

Without flinching 

Even in the thick Of crazy 

Though he trips

Arms of love grab him

Right back up he goes

moving forward

Refusing the dark 

never giving up 

Always believing 

Always hoping 

He finds his purpose in the moment 

Falling back into life and loving what's before him..

Out of the Dark

Always 

Love them

Hold them close 

This is what it's all about 

Moments in the soul..

Shared&treasured

Sought after cared for needed..

So worth giving 

It all comes back 

Seen & unseen

Spoken &Unspoken 

It stays with them..

And for that moment 

You changed their heart 

Their mind their soul

Giving them all they didn't know they needed..

You've strewn a light across their path

Who knows what tomorrow brings 

Who cares

It's happening now 

Make it count 

You're in the Worthwhile moments 

Maybe just maybe 

they fight a little harder 

Hanging on a little tighter 

Shutting out doubts believing their worth 

Letting go of fear 

Feeling the magic in the fire 

and the wonder in everything they see..

Loved Her Scars..

His love roared 

Louder than her tears

Softening her fears

Drowning out the demons that clawed at her..

until they lost their grip on her heart..

Tattered no more 

The beat of his heart

covering her

The breath of his love enveloping her

Healing her

Nourishing her soul..

filling her mind as she grasped her frailties and fears did not make up the sum of her..

little did she know they only added to the magic of her 

A heart so real so raw

You could not help but love her..

He knew she only needed a glimpse of true love's light..

A love so bright 

It would vanish the hurts that buried her heart mind and soul 

He chose to love her in ways she never knew

He loved her scars..

She chose to believe

The desires of her heart set free

never to walk it alone again..

Heartfelt❤️

Never certain what the day will bring loving him

Like A song not easy to write 

But the challenge so worth it..

The breakthrough tantalizing

Always Changing my moments 

Many moods he is

Intense gentle passionate strong weak

Up down quiet loud 

A storehouse of love..

A spark of magic in him

In his eyes his smile 

his touch 

Beckoning me always 

These arms of mine always wanting him

My love always growing 

Always changing 

Full of wonder excitement disappointment 

Happy tears sad tears 

Joy&laughter 

A journey of love&dreams

I'd walk through it again&again 

with you 

My Heart to Yours..

Could say goodbye a million different ways

A million different times

It's only words..

Never is there a way to let go

Hole in my heart

Hangs on to our feelings..

Searching looking for that hope 

A lifeline of any kind

Funny thing.. I'll always be there 

Wherever you are 

Wherever you aren't 

Unsure if you're ever coming back

Can't stop the swelling of my eyes..

Is it possible to lose yourself to someone and not lose your way

Don't know that it is..

Don't know I want to be found

Lost in the magic of you

What a gift your love is was has been..

To yearn crave dream you 

Thrills me hurts me fills me completes me..

Our love has always been 

It will always be

The unknown 

Covering the space that separates us❤️

YOU

You

She knew how to fall in love without trying 

Like breathing air.. 

It was all around her 

Traipsing about as it 

Drew her in

Filling her with new life

As she opened up to it..

One moment after another 

She absorbed him a little more 

Each moment sweeter than the one before..

No more walls between them 

Heart completely opened Soul Bared 

Vulnerable safe exhilarated frightened 

She broke all her rules for him

Something about it all 

Making her want to stay..

for him she risked it all

Foolish? crazy? 

Maybe..

All worth it..

Now what..

She feels the change 

Knew it all along really

Said it could never be..

Storm is brewing 

Chaotic heart

How Will she survive it?

Eyes wide open as they grew into a We..

Can she watch love die..

She's not prepared to

Fall 

He said he'd always catch her..

Haunted by Him

happy moments 

The sweetest love 

The saddest goodbye..

Hello

It will always be You

Let's Walk Backwards

The one who never leaves my mind.. 

The one who has invaded my dreams my heart my moments..

The one who makes me crazy happy 

And just plain ole crazy All my days

Walking side by side 

Strong together 

Weathering it all..

wishing you were right here

As always 

Before life's changes took over..

Let's walk backwards 

And get lost there

Is it possible..

I can feel you 

the essence of you..

And I'm covered in your love..

grateful that memories allow me to live one moment at a time any way i want..

forever grateful for you ❤️

I Got You Babe❤️

So it begins..

words so harsh her mind throws them out..

drowning out his voice 

The finality of it all..

"Two to three days is what i give him" he says..

What ?

What does that mean exactly?

Such cruel words 

It won't register

Confusion lines her face

Two three what? 

Till you fix him?

Till you give him back to me? Till he is no more?

No way can this be.. 

He's her lifetime 

He's her person

He's her 'I got you babe'

To grow old with and share grandbabes together..

So many more moments to come 

To share

To live and laugh together 

We are not done 

Her eyes beg scream shout plead 

Crying silently 

Saying all she can't speak out loud..

Breathing in deeply 

Holding back the hysteria 

She Thinks of her girls 

Drifting to happier moments..

Not yet she says

Not today..

She gathers her things 

Unaware of her surroundings

Drs in and out 

Beeping machines

Nurses IV's meds 

Murmurs of voices 

Words unheard..

Seeking escape 

She drives away..

Curled up in their bed she is safe 

Relaxing she starts to dream 

Peace covering her as she feels his love..

hugging his pillow 

she smiles 

as tears fall gently into the night..

Doesn't mean Goodbye

You are me

I am you 

How do I move on 

Deep inside my bones you live 

How can I move on

You're more than just a name 

A memory ... Words 

You are love 

My love

In a moment it all changed 

I cried out your name 

Only Silence cried back 

Not able to hear you 

Feel you

untouchable you've become 

Yet Your presence so alive in me 

you are gone I must be reminded 

A truth I wish to ignore

Life will not let me

Moments come and go without you

Life Happening all around me  

In those moments I feel you gently slipping away

quietly 

Helping set me free..

Kind unselfish love you are

Always were..

Fears & questions your love is releasing me from..

Your love quieting the chaos of my heart 

Your love letting me go to live again..

love again 

Another chance at life

So much I learned from you 

Profound 

I'm not losing you for a second time

You are still here

In my heart my mind my soul 

Standing at the end of my life 

We will always be ❤️

Always Tomorrow.. not always

They You I Them

We are all the same

Wanting needing searching yearning 

for kindness

A Gentle touch

Sweet gestures

Simple caring words

Filled by it..

Puts a smile on our face 

Just to know someone

Anyone remembers us

Thinks of us

Simply cares..

What has happened..

Why do we find this so hard to do..

Why do we stop doing things that matter..

Too busy

do it later 

tomorrow..

Whatever 

Is any reason good enough?

What are we fighting so hard for?

Always chasing life

Yet Letting it slip through our fingers..

Always after.. Later..

After is too late

Later never comes 

Don't drown in regrets

Let's live our lives gratefully&thankfully

There is no time like now..

Awakened 🌟

She closed her eyes

deeply inhaling..

Hearing the crashing of the waves 

Tasting the salt in the air 

Gentle breeze 

Squawking seagulls 

Lost in the aroma of her awakened senses

She sees it all..

sand shining from the reflection of the sun

Warmth to her worn mind

Lanky Legs stretched out 

Tilted head 

Gypsy hair all over the place 

Her thoughts giving into the mood 

A smile spreads across her face

There is time to feel now

The beauty of a cloudless sky

Hearing the squeals of laughing babes..

Feeling the rays soften as the sun sets

Nurturing to her mind..

Senses alive fed stimulated..

She absorbs it all

living every moment completely..

Feeling inspired 

In love with her life ❤️

Battlefield

Can't escape it

It follows 

Alive within

Push Pull Push Pull..

Always battling 

the mind&heart..

The heart wants what the heart wants 

The mind knows what the mind knows 

Who do you believe?..

Shouldn't be afraid..

Shouldn't be so unsure..

Not used to living there..

questioning things 

life always lived in an open book kind of way 

and happily..

This new chapter has changed it all up 

Without order.. 

Where did it start

And 

Is there an ending?

So many questions

Jagged thoughts

I don't know what it all means..

I do know it doesn't stop here 

I do know how I choose to see it is a choice 

I will choose to listen carefully 

Hear The laughter

See the beauty  

feel the peace

Live the hope 

Smile at my fears

rendering them powerless 

The battle is worth it***