Rise Up

inside the demons hide

and the moments are colder 

yet love blankets my bones

it's so dark 

the bright not seeping in..

I feel the howling whispers of defeat 

the booming silence in this empty space

bores into my soul

The mental breakdown breaking something in me already wounded 

Rising - I will face it with a steadfast perspective riding the ever changing tide of emotion and circumstance..

For now I will learn to listen in the dark 

Knowing each moment holds the chance of a fresh new start 

Silent War..

You, her, me,

them, they, us..

scrutinizing each other until the words decimate the soul..

lies become truth 

Wrongs become right..

The silent war is on 

It's lethal 

Fatalities high 

Jealousy causing a disease within us..

rotting to the core until we are no more

Critiquing never ends 

So much hurt 

desensitization real..

Intense pretty blue eyes 

shading the hate 

Brown eyes dull with pain

green eyes no longer sparkle 

ridicule has had its' way far too long 

shredding her along the way tearing you down

Until we are a wisp of a shadow of who they once were..

though the smile is present her laugh out loud,

she has decayed inside

The smell unbearable

The pain crushing 

She will fight no more..

No one wins

as we all disappear within the mirror of fear we've learned to hate..

  

Unique

Distinct

Exceptional 

Courageous in your uniqueness 

You make me better 

No pretense 

Loving freely, honestly, completely 

You've awoken a gentle rage within 

It moves me 

Wonder if you'll ever understand 

All I need is your hand 

There is no bondage 

No chains, no rules 

Hope can be a weapon

Go ahead 'n' pull the trigger 

It's worth the fall

For I haven broken free 

One more time..

How do I stand at the abyss and not fall in..

the nightmare a reality 

They need me to stay strong..

How do I keep my heart from giving in

It feels what my eyes see

It hears the violent truths my ears hear

It can't escape what my mind can't fathom.. 

I'm haunted 

This space can't exist without you 

my walls will come tumbling down 

Crushing me

Who will save me if I can't save you 

my heart is so weary 

How do I protect you 

Keep the chains of pain away from you 

my heart runs cold from fear..

My eyes will close with yours 

So I can see your smile 

Hear your giggles 

Feel those little hands reaching out and touching me

my heart needs yours..

maybe one day I'll breathe again 

maybe not 

What I'd give to breath your air for a lifetime..

Whirlwind..

Whirlwind 

all your emotions whirling about 

I taste the sweetness of your love in the air

surrounding me with every breath I take 

My Heart pounding to the intake of you 

until I surrender 

Unrelenting..

A blessing or a curse to care so..

Your gaze - seeing through to my soul 

It's beautiful 

A love that fills me to my core

making me complete 

I'll bear your wind and live in the whirlwind that follows.. 

The many sides of her..

The haze is lifting 

The picture more clear 

Show yourself 

Where do you hide..

She hears the silent tears

She feels them too

Trying to follow the ache of sadness.. it's no where to be found 

The image appears

every where she looks..

big brown eyes

full of despair & weariness

looking back 

The heaviness sinks in when  she finally stops avoiding the shadow 

It's her

She's been running all her days 

the road has been long but 

the end is near - the dark is lightening 

and she takes deep breaths

realizing memories don't define her

That first step

so tentative, so shaky

as new life is coming into view..

Who is she

she's not sure 

But She smiles at what She sees

The mirror has shattered

Glass splintered everywhere..

and she sees how wonderful the many sides of her can be..