I’ll remain..

Keeping it safely between the lines 

you remain blind..

The walls of your mind so unkind..

shouting, yelling - such a grind 

you’re heavy, you’re weary 

shaking on unstable ground..

no more running 

no more hiding 

No more sliding into despair..

Your eyes show the strength of how much you care..

break down the walls 

open those eyes - let me inside 

What did I learn through your walk of pain..

to love us new all over again..

To love us through & through

I’ll never quit growing, 

I’ll never quit showing  

how much more I have to pour into your heart..

And there I’ll remain, until you’re ready to start..

Misunderstood

You take from me

Keep shaking me

raking me through the coals 

You gloat 

I mope - 

we reap what we sow..

It don’t matter to the world 

It will keep spinning 

Time will keep winning

No matter that you’ve changed 

I may be delicate & sweet in all that you see..

But don’t misconstrue what you think you know 

about me..

I will shine again 

I will find my sun

I will find my feet and learn to run..

as I roam..

Homesick for a home that doesn’t exist anymore..

I wonder as I wander

what I’m looking for..

Putting my hands in

I dig deep 

As I seek the mystery from the other side.. 

my wounds 

bare my soul,

dim my light, 

expose my darkness,

unravel my madness

and restore my hopes..

I live in there

They make me 

they break me 

It also sets me free..

no crying over things that aren’t or weren’t 

Live life to its’ fullest..

There will always be X 

The great unknown 

and it may always keep me seeking for my home

but I will thrive as i roam..

Handful of love..

Life through your hands..

oh the life they’ve lived.. 

as I hold them tight

eyes closed

my imagination goes for a ride

as I try to relive what is inside..

I want to give back what you gave with such grace..

so many stories waiting to be told - wrapped up tenderly in their fold..

Tracing the lines

my hand upon yours

I feel it 

I live it..

the moments they’ve seen 

the joys, the heartaches and the in-betweens..

through the touch of your fingertips straight to my heart - you’ve been there carrying us right from the start..

those strong, loving hands binding us tight knowing that it took all of your might..

guiding us through each of the plights..

Cheering us on through the good and the bad..

comforting, caressing with all that you had..

encouraging protector -beacon of light 

You are what pushed us on through the dark nights..

your hands have loved us, snuggled us and raised us on up.. 

woven throughout my heart and filled up my cup..

As I hold your hand now 

I fully understand 

exactly what it meant to be in command..

you’ve given your all

my heart overflows 

as imagination and reality finally take hold.. 

I can stand strong and see old things new 

Living this blessing because of you..

Walk with me..

Words may escape us

certainty may evade us..

how did I miss it..

The empty smile 

Total denial 

slipping - we lost our footing 

the ground shook beneath us

the world caved in

eclipsing our sun..

tears may fall with the slipping 

Bones may be weary 

but my heart remains full..

it trembles with the unsteadiness 

as it roars with the love of you

all we need is the beating of our hearts to restart..

no more tears, no more fears..

I’ll fall

I’ll stand 

I’ll walk 

I’ll crawl 

As long I’m silently doing it all beside you..

walk with me

My Toxin..

strychnine

inhaling, swallowing absorbing you 

your taste ever so lethal..

I slip away

I fly high 

I fall apart 

The pain I hide in dissipates..

Do you know I’m gone 

Do you feel it in your bones..

I’m free

As they bury me eight feet deep..

with me goes the hurt & 

the lies as i mix in with the dirt..

leaving me be 

all my secrets

all my fears 

have been set free..

Walk away and know -

I’m as happy as I’ll ever be as i go..

You are the only one don’t you know..

Bloodstained..

I will never forget what it is like to be lost and free..

I will always know what it is like to be found and bound..

we went round & round 

until my sounds were silenced 

You never understood 

My heart was your design 

the markings of you permanent.. 

The ink has dried

yet on & on we go..

even though our song is no longer sung 

you are all I know..

Who could blame me

I didn't want just the flame 

I wanted my turn to feel the burn and to 

consume me..

You collect the debts of my soul

You paint the pictures in my mind 

You paint the pictures in my heart 

You will follow me in my new start 

As I’m 

Blood stained by the likes of you..