Tuesday, January 26, 2016

Fading..


Fading ..

nightfall 
darkness closing in..
Her muscles twitch 
Jittery and nervous 
Desperate for this long awaited hour 
Needing her world 
Finally 
The silent noises subside
Her mind relaxes
giving in to the dark..
She walks quickly to the bedroom 
her torn dingy white gown trailing behind her
Collapsing on the bed inaudible sounds slip
from her throat..
Eyes closed she rises 
as it all comes to life 
She senses him 
Feels him calling 
As the closet door creaks open slowly 
Anticipation is etched across her weary face 
Nothing but dust particles float out in all directions
She gasps wondering where he's been hiding
She reaches out tentatively 
ever so gently 
Somehow aware this is a fragile moment she dares not breathe 
Ecstatic he's joined her 
She reaches out her hand 
And knows he's always been here 
in all her dreams this is how she sees him..
He reaches back 
He twirls her round and round drawing her close until she feels his breath upon her face..
Breathing in deeply she sighs..
A teardrop slips out 
rolling down her cheek 
smearing her dream
Her eyes flash open 
wild with fear and pain
Her colorful dream fading..
giving way to black&white 
No.. She moans..
Clutching his picture she curls up 
How long till she sees his face again..
Darkness closing in on her
She fades to black 




Thursday, January 21, 2016

SharpShooter




Ricocheting so quietly
It is frighteningly loud
can't hear my tears..
they are speaking words that shatter to the ground before they reach your ears..
Shrapnel 
Shooting from those lips that were once so gentle
Words flying at me like daggers 
Bulls eye..
Empty you say 
Meaningless you say 
but oh it hurts so..
deadly
Painful 
each one deeper than the last 
The Wounds are fatal 
Can't dodge the bullets anymore 
Can't stop the hemorrhaging 
Hear the ripping 
It's my heart bleeding out 
Can't keep up with this walk of pain 
Who told you your aim wasn't deadly 
That your words are harmless 
They pierce so clean 
So fine so deep 
they slice right through
You're burying me alive..




Tuesday, January 19, 2016

WONDERMENT

WONDERMENT 

It began on that knoll..
Too good to be real
Too real to be true..
Feeling his smile from afar as she drives up 
She feels herself flush 
Clammy 
Colors changing quickly on her face - her heart banging against her chest so loudly she is certain he can hear it..
He is at her side in seconds 
Brave strong commanding in presence 
Gentle in his touch
His soft lips graze hers
She never takes her eyes off of him as he softly strokes her face 
Drinking him in..
The Electricity between them palpable 
who knew such a connection 
The coupling of two souls could exist without them being aware of it until this moment..
A simple hello
Started a fire that can't be quenched 
A hunger to know more 
A mind eager to be filled with words from him..
Only he will do..
The unknown 
Anticipation excitement 
Her heart racing in ways she didn't know existed
The wonderment of each other 
Tripping over words 
Speaking out of turn 
Her eyes searching his
Seeking out truths 
She needs to know what she is doing
His eyes bore holes through to her soul As he fixates on her 
reading her mind 
Drawing her in 
What is happening 
Confusion excitement bewilderment 
how she could have such emotions for him..
This thing.. A friendship missed in all those many moments of life
And now exploding into a thing.. She was at a loss to label it 
Words evade her
No way to know or imagine such an innocent beginning could cause such a fever within her..
Stop this she says over&over to herself 
Wake up open your eyes..
She can no longer hear herself 
Slipping away she feels him invading her piece by piece 
as if her person knew something she didn't 
There will be no turning back 
No undoing what is happening to her mind heart and body..
Every part of her wanting to know every part of him
Vulnerable scared thrilled 
Scarcely breathing  
She knows she'll be his 
He caresses her with his love
She is filled with the light of it..
Arms gently wrapping around her 
He fills her mind with his words 
He steals her heart with his tenderness 
He owns her body with his touch..
She willingly gives all that she is to have all that is him..

Saturday, January 16, 2016

Imaginings




Visceral..
feeling it 
Grasping 
I reach out to grab it 
I know it's there 
I feel your breath
hear your laugh 
I see your smile 
Awake asleep 
daydreaming 
real time.. 
You are there
Imaginings in my head 
wistful heart  
hanging on to its' dreamcatcher hopes
believing emotions like this could never fade..
Bursting forth like flowers in spring
It flourishes 
it does so all on its' own..
No place to call its' home 
No one to tend to it
No one to shelter it 
Protect it guard it
grow it..
It is so real 
The roaring of its' love heard in all its' silence 
The beating of my heart 
giving it strength & life 
Desire and passion 
growing stronger with each breath 
Waiting to be one with you 
Illogical non-rational is the You rooted deeply within me..



Wednesday, January 13, 2016

Just Before the Dawn



You are My rays from the sun..
Waves of euphoria sweeping over me 
This skin I'm all wrapped up is melting from the heat of your love 
Feels nothing like myself 
Love has swept through me
Not the sell your soul to the devil kind of love
No.. The kind you're hoping to never wake up from.. 
Hauntingly good
Didn't know I was lost 
you found me
And gave me back myself..
My own strength to stand on 
Your love my foundation 
So subtle..
small ray of light filling my soul 
lighting up my world..
My dawn of the night
Breaking through.. casting your glow of love all over me 
I am fascinated as I watch myself fall deeper in love 
Irresistible beautiful 
Held captive by the twilight of you..  


Friday, January 8, 2016

Free in Love



Enchanted
Heart throbbing 
been set free in
Love..
He is Captivated addicted 
Infatuated 
no longer caring about anything or anyone 
Only Her..
perfection is all he sees as she 
Moves about In her not so graceful way
Her clumsy beauty endearing her to him
Admiration that keeps growing 
A new beginning
limitless love..
she has no idea she makes love to his soul with just a glance 
leaves him craving more 
She gives him a smile
he catches his breath..
Stunned by the intensity of it all
Her love
flowing from the inside of her
bubbling outward 
Radiating her face..
Sparkling out of her bright eyes
casting a glow on her soft porcelain cheeks..
His mind gushes with emotions he can't contain
moments wrapped up in thoughts of her..
She is everywhere 
owning his heart 
Bewitched beguiled..
Happy to be caught 
Basking in the warmth of his deep affection for her 
Open to a lifetime
There is no love without freedom..

Tuesday, January 5, 2016

Bleed for You



Cuts through to my core
Ripping me apart..
I wish to be whole 
Begging my heart 
pleading with my mind
to no longer feel you..
I hurt everywhere 
even my smile aches 
The pain staggering
till I'm certain my teeth are stained red
Bleeding for you..
Hate/Love
What does it mean..
I feel it as my fingers touch you 
Recoiling at the hurt anger 
Betrayal of our forever.. 
It only takes a moment 
before memories come seeping in through my fingertips as ours hands entwine..
Your magic grasping my heart 
gathering its' shredded pieces
my tears falling so fast 
the pain is forgotten
in the salty wet mess my face has become..
Love/Hate.. 
same difference 
I want you I need you 
Our love is rare 
Kiss me deeply 
Take me back to our moments 
where I'm adored cherished and loved..
Bury my loneliness in your heart 
In you I'm whole 
I'll bleed for you



Invincible



You stormed through my world 
An indomitable force 
gentle kind&full of life 
an invincible fierce kind of love
Owning me at once 
I am lost in your eyes
mine will never shut again 
Like a lamp being turned on
Eclipsing all darkness 
You light up my heart 
Senses memorizing you 
In Blissful Detail 
the warmth of your skin
the rhythm of your breath
The touch of your lips 
ears tingling at the sound of you
That voice 
the melody my mind unwinds to
Brushing your fingers over my heart like strumming a guitar
merging my soul to yours until we are one..
It is you I long for 
you I wish to enjoy life with 
You are the one I adore 
The one I love 
The one my heart beats for..
You will always be my weakness making me strong..