Angel Eyes

You don't see the cracks 

The breaks 

The crooked path to the beaten heart

You gently gaze at the shaded eyes - once so bright & full of hope- the darkness not frightening you 

away

The emptiness urging you on

For You see only my soul

Like an angel you appear filling me up.. giving me hope

You breath flesh to my bones

And those angel eyes push me on..

belly laughs through To my feet until I'm afraid no more

And I want what you have 

I choose life 

To the best of me 

I Wish..

I wish I could give you a hundred years 

For every lost moment 

And we'd no longer live in tears 

Everything stands between us 

The gap to big to bare.. it swallowed you up until you were no longer there..

Was it fate that sealed the door 

or just us as we hit the floor

I leapt without looking tumbling into a dream..

reality slowly slipped away as

You infiltrated the very core of my being..

A bit of madness lives on as I smile through the tears..

Canvas of Love

The violent sky held its' breath

as my thoughts waged war

Breaking me down, ripping me apart hope by hope 

the assault brutal, until I was no more 

Lifeless and spent - I crumbled

But the hold was relentless..

I glanced up and the tenderness caused me to catch my breath

Your eyes spoke of an honesty I couldn't turn from..

Slowly the sky exhaled 

As you broke through to my heart 

Your touch feeding me 

The hate dissipating..

my war torn soul falling away 

As you canvassed me in a love so full of life 

I felt the breath returning..

My heart had come home

Alive in You

In the quietude, my words are loud clear crisp 

they have taken flight through the eyes of which they live

speaking what they see

my true voice alive in you 

My inner strength has come to be 

I'm moving onward in the stillness 

Knowing only I can help you 

battle the pain within 

You will see 

you will understand 

The space between us will be no more 

I may exist in another time

We may never speak again

The absence of us may feel it's swallowing you up 

For I've disappeared..

but my heart will never change

No matter how kind or unkind life was to us

We will always be 

you are in me and I am in you 

A love absorbed into my Heart mind and soul

traipses through me and allows me to keep living in you in the most beautiful of ways..

I am right here, right there 

I'm everywhere 

I'll always be in the air around you 

An eternal part of you 

I'll always be your whisper 

It is ok to let me go..

By Design

Exhilarating

This boundless anticipation that has a hold of me..

I feel it 

I know I've found it 

the purpose and joy of it all

In all things there is perfect timing 

And though some things  hurt and there is no understanding it

Something good always comes out of our pain..

keep moving 

New beginnings are filled with unknown treasures 

Nothing is for nothing 

Life is purposeful and we are the reasons 

the love and the basis of it all

It will be how it should be..

Absorb your days with opened eyes - a willing spirit 

A loving heart and a grateful mind..

Celebrate thanksgiving with a happy heart and a love for life

MY ALL

Your Words paint the walls of my mind 

What I see I feel

It is unreal 

Where I stand is beautiful 

Because I am free

It's where I should be..

take that step with me 

We won't just drift into an incredible we

Grab hold of our passion and  persevere 

Here are my hands

hold them tight 

Here are my arms

Let them bind you up 

Here are my feet carrying my soul to you 

Here are my eyes burning only for you..

my heart 

I'm letting it soar - hear it roar 

as my all beats for you 

Without Wrinkles for Stains

I hugged you goodnight 

You didn't fall asleep alone 

I wrap you in my love 

I wish you the most wonderful everything 

For a love this sweet knows no bounds

Though it can bring sadness 

It is the happiest sad I've ever known..

My love is an open book with the pages wisping in the wind

The breeze records my whispers of adoration sending them your way

I'll always be here 

Where that is exactly I'm not sure..

But here is my heart for you to hold

Sway with me 

Movements of a tender love

One can't measure another's heart

For we love equally- yet differently making each love unique 

So I will love you and you will love me 

without wrinkles for stains 

Surrendering our all..

Free to be..

Held down no more..

Love actually sets us free

Free to be who we are

Free to love without fear 

Love is limitless 

and its' joy cannot be contained..

there is no controlling love 

Only protecting it - growing with it -  changing bending and flowing with it 

It runs through our being and becomes us

It causes me to go deep into my soul - see where I'm growing or standing still 

I wish to never be flippant about something so treasured, unique and valued

There is no price or way to measure the beauty of love and how it fills ones' heart..

There is also no greater tragedy than when love is allowed to become a weapon..

it can twist destroy and kill one inside causing utter destruction

Leaving such chaos in its' wake..

Unchain yourself 

Walk free in all that is yours to be 

Guard what is yours

for there is no greater gift than love for you and me..

Ones who Dream

It may be a raging storm 

Let me rock you gently and bring you on home 

Fall into my arms

as our love flows through us over&over again

awakening my heart 

filling with me joy 

Drowning me in sorrow..

Elation for the ways you are synced to my heart..

ways that exhilarate me

sadness because you are synced to my heart in ways that cannot be 

Such a beauty all its' own..

One I cannot understand..

You are pure delight 

You are quiet heartache 

I have lost my mind or heart.. Or both

It's all so true 

So me 

So you 

wanting to feel you one more time 

the ache of missing you brings me to my knees and 

I need your arms to lift me 

However crazy that seems

Come what may, 

Here's to the ones who dream..

 

Magnetic Hold

You speak and the magic begins

The breath of your words enchanting 

awakening me to such things I've never known..

every fiber of my being

hanging on to every syllable..

craving the melodic sound that is you

the most gentle calling of love 

My soul hears you 

My heart grows to you 

My mind absorbing you 

intertwine your hands into mine 

Feel what I am

Be drawn in by the magnetic love that is you&I

Where I am weak 

You are strong 

When I am lost 

You are found 

Together we are one 

in this 

Unending loving bond..

Beautiful Quiet

It flows without effort 

Intimacy is everything

the timeless affection affinity and warmth 

the smiles 

hands touching 

Moments of missing and not missing 

The stolen glances 

full of wonder 

The quiet shared 

It's bewildering, romantic and beautiful all at once

The connectedness of our soul draws us back from wherever our hearts &minds have been 

And suddenly Your words fill the space and I'm wrapped in you

and the harmony of our hearts cannot be stopped..

I love you in all our silence

Immersed

as you are hustling and bustling to get there

to arrive

to achieve

to complete your dreams

let your eyes fall open wide 

catch it in technicolor.. 

Are you immersed in it

Touching breathing tasting the sweet moments 

savoring the beauty of it..

Slow down

There is no such thing as arriving 

it's ever changing..

Don't look for it

Don't race to it

Let the sensation of living grab hold of you 

Let life be your muse 

Steady your pace

it's not worth taxing your heart

exhausting your mind

be carefree in the desires of your heart

let it be one that is captivated by the moments 

Live&Die on Love

Love..

It doesn't discriminate  

It catches you unaware

No prejudicial treatment there

Death doesn't differentiate either 

It knows no difference of race sex or age

We all fall the same 

Love the same  

hurt and live the same 

hard to distinguish Between the sinner & the saint

I could be life I could be death 

Could be love could be hate 

Let me stay and show you what I'll create 

When you smile I fall apart

tears trickle down my face 

I've always thought 

sacredness lies within them

Not cowardice..

It's a love that knows no bounds 

Yet love itself binds me up until I can no longer see..

Get lost in me

And you will see what a 

Contradiction love can be..

Except Everything..

For one moment you have peace 

All is okay in the world 

until it isn't 

And in that instant we panic

Run - give up..

Hope so easily lost 

We forget the trenches we've climbed out of 

The mountains we've scaled 

The pain we've endured 

The strength that we discovered within through the love that carries us 

Don't fear the changes 

They will come 

Let it grow you - inspire you - push you move you and 

As the wind blows you here&there 

loosen your grip 

Listen to the whispers of life as it whirls you about 

There is a gentleness to be found in chaos 

The only constant in life is 

Nothing really changes

except everything

Nomadic Heart

The chill of your heart seeps through to my bones leaving me frigid 

My heart is not wooden 

I will not die while I'm living 

I reach out craving the feeling  of you 

My hand falls through the empty dead space 

dread fills my heart

Stop holding on so tight to hate 

Just let yourself be held 

aren't you tired of running..

my arms can hold you still

fill you with meaning 

It's the simple things that

Create the good things 

let my warmth thaw the frost surrounding you and 

my love will wrap around your heart

Set those vagabond feet still

and wandering will be no more..

Above All Else

Revenge..

What is its' purpose

so aggressive in its' silence

Poisoning us to the core 

So loud in its' destructive ways

Mutilating souls from the inside out..

Silently dulling our senses 

Until we no longer see 

We no longer hear 

We no longer feel 

We are no longer real

giving us hearts of steel.

Fight against it.. 

Resist

Don't say you can't 

But of course you can 

you will find a way out

walk through it until you own it 

find the freedom of being present here&now

And not looking behind or to be ahead 

It's now that counts.. The rest is gone or not quite here

love the simple of the moment

That is what makes life so grand.. the complex simple 

The ugly beautiful - the pain bearable..

Bitter should never take root in your beautiful heart 

let life explode within it..

Running Free

Full of life and love in the liveliest of ways

gradually percolating through me until you filled each pore of my heart 

filling me with an expectant energy 

exuberant animated alive

Your heart is speaking loud

even in your absence 

my heart is flying 

It can't be contained

I find you in my waking hours 

I feel you in my slumber 

All we are is true 

from beginning to end 

A day like today-once upon a time-defined us 

creating such truth that love would never be the same 

You were designed to inspire and awaken my soul

With each word we became us 

I'll always think of you as me  forever to be

memories alone will get us through 

Chasing the dream that I see

My heart is running free 

as it should be..

Broken Mind

clenching so tight her hands hurt

every muscle tense as perspiration bubbled on her soft pale skin

she gasped, as she realized the battle was done 

The long hard struggle was no more..

Breathing in deeply, she fell to her knees collapsing in tears..

Her tired mind no longer racing, the turmoil silenced..

She tried putting thoughts together; 

wondering how she'd ever breathe again..

She wanted to

She wanted to try but all she could do was cry

She told herself to move, to leave it all behind

But without him, there was no place to go..

She couldn't fathom the unthinkable 

The dark night beckoned her with promises untold

Closing her eyes, her hands fell open as her face softened..

Her soul gave way to the dark night 

What had begun was done..

Numb no more..

Tender whispers of love thundering through me

I hear it trying to break through

Tears rolling gently down my face as they silently splash the floor.. 

There is no anger, no rush, no push, nor condemnation in these emotions.. Just the sweetest tug of assurance that life is awaiting..

encouraging me to leave behind the fear that binds and chokes so tightly 

The whispers & tears delicately wrapping around me ever so tenderly 

determined to draw me back into life 

Until they uncover my heart from the dark shadows that have numbed it..

More Than Me

Yesterday no more..

Death has been my constant companion for many a days now 

flirting with my mind 

taunting me

Trying to spin around me like a spider webbing his victim..

cloaking me with fear

I battle through 

Death won't take me 

It shakes me 

It wakes me 

But will never break me..

Death can't own me 

I've been set free

I'll face my trepidations with courage for I know I'll grow..

understanding not all things are easy to accept 

while some things are worth dying for..

I have no control so I'm letting go 

I'm not behind me 

nor in front 

I'm right here right now - in the present - this is the moment that counts 

I will live it like I mean it while I can 

because life is more than me..

Truly Madly

Transformed 

I've been utterly and wonderfully changed 

You sustain the rhythms of my heart

It's all swirly and you let it fly 

You allowed me to reveal myself 

live myself 

love myself 

I've lived in dark so long

Never knew my own worth or inner strength 

You let me in to discover me 

breaking down all illusions I died in

Metamorphosed me

creating a riot in my heart 

it's a wonderful world 

an incredible adventure to be wildly mad with you..

Nothing is Something

Told my heart to begin again 

a mind is a powerful thing 

Let the blood flow 

hear it beat 

Feel the heat of life as it stirs within me

Stepping out into the light of day 

All at once everything changes 

How much does nothing weigh..

Almost enough to crush you

I can live without knowing 

Hope without seeing 

Feel without touching 

I won't hide anymore 

I will not hesitate 

I don't want to

I'll never take more than I give

I've learned the value of it all

Nothing is always something 

and so it begins

Let It Rain

She knows what's at stake..

fear will not own her 

she readies herself.. 

Bundling up for the storm that life has set before her 

shuddering at the very thought of giving in.. 

Losing hope - the wonder of life

For without it she will cease to exist..

That will not happen 

She will grow in the downpour 

Standing strong 

remaining curious 

That thought makes her smile 

It is a beautiful word 

Curious

always wondering

always growing 

She will remain loud 

For her bones will waste away if she stays silent 

So let it rain 

She is rooted in 

This storm will not shake her

Messy Love

She is an explosion of emotions 

Gigantic messy all

the over the place emotions..

that kind of explosion that one should never have to clean up after 

debris only she can understand 

It scares him not 

He's determined 

Relentless in his quest for her

He will help her find her way through it

Open arms waiting for the broken heart and messes that are the sum of her

He loves everything about her

Even the unexplainable 

He is willing detonate with her 

as long as he lands in her world 

Never Alone

Curling up beside you 

Drawing you close 

Praying my strength into your bones 

Breathing deeply for you 

Wishing you whole 

Willing all my love to wrap around you as tightly as my arms 

That you might feel the love 

That it might give you peace 

Fill you with hope 

Give you the fight so you may endure what's before you 

Put your hands in mine 

Let me be the vine that intertwines your heart soul and mind - guarding&protecting

I will hold you up when you can no longer stand 

Wear the pain you can no longer bear

Cover you in love when you no longer care

I can't fix what I can't fix 

But I can promise you this

You will never be in this alone 

For I am bringing you home

Is He Mine

questions

Without any answers.. 

realizing there aren't solutions for every situation 

So caught up in him in ways I can't explain 

I look in the mirror trying to find me or is it him I see

Quite certain his face overshadows mine just like his heart eclipsed my own making my heart his home 

I don't know what I see looking back at me 

A reflection I'm not so sure of anymore

so captivated by him

didn't know any of this could be 

He brushes my hair..

He holds my hand

I'm afraid..

I don't share our moments 

They are mine to cherish 

So precious so sweet 

Such love  

So fragile.. 

I feel the delicate edges surrounding us

Knowing we can crumble at any time

Unsure how to protect what isn't mine 

I will fight with all my might 

To guard what has become my treasured delight

Story of All

Story of All

I feel your loud words 

I hear your silent ones

as we tippy toe along this broken road 

Cracks took you there and pushed me here

Up down & all around

supposed to set us free 

But we keep sliding backwards to one another along this heartbreaking ride..

Come sit 

Listen to my heart

Feel my thoughts 

It's not for naught 

It isn't nothing 

There is something I've learned 

We aren't anything so broken that we can't be fixed

We can live with scars 

I've restored the cracks with a new shade of love

Live out these thoughts with me 

You are the end of my everything 

Listen to the words I speak as i read you the story 

of All

Emerged

No more screaming no more pain 

You have dried beneath my nails 

The blood chafing away 

Taking the hurts and memories with it..

I can't hate anymore what I wish to love 

so I must let you go

I wish you no ill will

Ask me how I lived till now 

I'll tell you I don't know 

The rain has washed me clean

My spirit has been set free

All our love isn't dead

just a place I can no longer tread

I won't be tangled and strangled anymore..

can you hear me as I silently slip away 

can you feel the freedom I gain as I'm no longer owned by the pain..

Emerging is a new me

One that can finally breath..

Hearts' Desire

She is made of questions

curiosity driving her..

pardon her stare 

Her mind so aware

Within you are her answers waiting to spill out 

And fill her thoughts with the wonder of you 

covering her heart

Wrapping her tight within your fold

Educate her until you are one and there is none other that will quench the mystery of her hearts' desire 

Etched into Hope

Such a wonderful world I crashed into

so unreal all I feel 

dance in it with me 

You've colored my world 

I see it everywhere 

No darkness surrounding me anymore 

gray skies faded into hope.... heartaches overshadowed by the awe and wonder of all I see

You've painted my heart in shades of love that never were

How can I ever show my gratitude for such a gift

You spun me in the right direction.. Set my feet on the path they've aimlessly searched for..

No longer walking circles

No longer lost 

I see me through your eyes 

And I'm mesmerized 

loving myself from the inside out 

What a wonderful world you've shown me 

Washing me in compassion and love

Etching your story on my heart letting my true colors come shining through..

If Only Love

If only you could see with your heart

You would know truth

It doesn't lie in our eyes for they are veiled with life 

Nor our emotions for they can be deceiving 

and our minds alone on their own - can be robotic..

within our heart - it's altogether different 

It's full of compassion hope goodness 

In it lives love

Let it filter out into each pore 

Let it cover us head to toe 

Unveiling those blinded eyes 

Cleansing the lies from our core 

Setting free our minds 

to Know to feel to believe 

to be free in all that we want to be..

Love is where we began 

Love is how it should be

If only we would choose to see..

Titillate Me

Arouse my heart

Stimulate my mind 

Tantalize my senses 

Let me fall victim to the crime of your passions 

Tailspin me till I am grounded in your love 

We are so different yet we are one

I will be your insanity and you be mine..

Over and over we go until the end of time 

I will spend all of my days finding the you I knew

The more you give the more I want

Rouse me tease me 

Come on and please me 

let's do our thing 

we can lose our mind 

Lose control

And plummet into love

While the fascination grows..

Love Me Loud

The sound of silence is no more 

Electrifying

To know you..

You breathe the silent moments to full attention

the atmosphere is filled with love 

And I'm feeling as never before..

My heart still beats but it is now complete

though it skips a beat racing at the thought of you 

My skin still feels but it tingles 

Throughout 

My lungs still expand but deeper richer fuller 

So vibrant

Life shines so bright in you 

It lights me up 

this is it

You are the one who jolts my heart to life

Loving me loud

Our flavor..

I wish to savor you

Swallow me up in the flavors of love 

Into your deep unending 

place of bliss

The mystery of you will unravel my heart for a lifetime 

How did I stumble upon you 

Tripping into this whirlwind of wow

I was not ready 

but now I can't stop thinking upon you 

I'm listening to the words of my heart

Never heard such things before

Such an enigma 

Never before has one captivated all my senses

leaving me dizzy 

I'll do what it takes to live out my hearts' desire

spending a lifetime chasing the dreams you've ignited within me 

offering all I have 

Let the flavor of me 

Fill each pore with love as I explore the taste of you..

Designer of Me

see what is me

feel hold believe what you see my reflection

It's so real 

it's tangible all you will feel 

It speaks volumes 

Hidden truths  

It's what's inside 

The breath of my soul and opening of my heart are preserved for you

Let the rain of your love pelt on me until it stings

All freedom comes at a price

Designer of my heart that loves so freely now 

I am the sum memories of we

At last I see the light 

and the reflection of you shines so bright 

Crush Me

Heart screaming for a second chance..

Willing to make mistakes for the love of you as life goes on

Happy sad somethings 

Something is never nothing 

let me tell you nothing you want to hear 

With every crushing blow 

I grow 

every broken bone I feel you 

It renews me as it juts through  me

seeing with new eyes

Loving with an undiscovered heart 

So shatter me 

To bits and pieces..

I learn through the remnants of us

being held together by the strength of your unconditional love

See yourself through my eyes 

And know how lucky i am

For meeting you was the end of life as the way I knew it

Unguarded

We aren't turmoil with drama & rules 

or fear - owning each other 

So relax and let go 

Can't you see

I'm all in 

I'm set on you

step by step we grow in strength - a love so powerful

It can't be stopped..

My heart wrapped in yours creating wonder as we go 

No person paper or thing can make us a we

A love this beautiful and fierce deserves to be free

I don't want to lose us because I forget who we are

Adventurous is all we want to be..

true to you & me 

Can we lead a normal love 

Define normal 

we are weirdly good 

Forever misunderstood 

We can be anything we want to be

unguarded.. raw in love 

It's our attraction to living life that draws us together 

So let's live the moments carefree as they are meant to be..

Eruption

Stunned 

wide awake

Immobilized by the intensity  of you

alive & affected by your love until my heart is ready to detonate

All I can do is bleed it out..

Cut me open and watch me live..

This love, this amazing passion that grips my heart

Rips me up and sets me free

A love so puzzling, so perfect 

our connectedness can't be mistaken

can't be denied 

an intimacy so deeply shared  

you've erupted a part of me that never existed 

I ache for you through every pore of my being 

Burst my heart wide open

Living for the pain of you 

I never knew

Raise Your Glass

Crushing to watch it disappear

evaporating into thin air as if it never was..

Oh how I had pictured our moments.. 

One after the other 

never ending..

A love that would finally get the time to be.. to share, to grow, absorbing each other until our breath was one..

We'd only just begun before it was done 

I imagined a slowing of time 

Staying put awhile 

It was not to be

Couldn't keep you still 

We were Beautiful..

why does this darkness feel like it has covered us in filth 

overshadowing the light that lit my way 

You made all my crooked paths straight 

With purpose.. meaning..

So hard to breathe now 

This chokehold will never release me 

I don't wish to be 

Your ghost I want to always see

Human fingerprints permanent stains 

leaving their marks of love all around 

When the sun goes down on us and there's no turning back 

I hope you raise your glass to all that was and your heart is set free

Should you turn around and reach for me

I'll always be a breath away from wherever you will be..

Timeless Love

Timeless Moments

Anticipation - one of a kind I never knew

Imagination going wild 

excitement about the unknown known 

Tired feet happy heart achy body

so in love with the love spreading through me

And just like that 

I am forever changed..

In an Instant 

a new heart I bare

each tear filled with you&I 

A hush falls over me awestruck, captivated 

Enthralled by the ball of joy in my arms..

Feeling lost for a moment, tinged with sadness

a jealousy that I must share this oneness with the world 

and exhilarated to show off my gift 

Pink baby toes 

Wiggly chubby fingers 

tickles giggles and fresh baby smells..

cutest bald head to wisps of hair 

babbling to talking

Crawling to running 

Wanting to please me to shutting me out and back again  

Treasured moments teaching you.. watching you grow in size wisdom and love

Priceless ones realizing you taught me back and you taught me well..

How to love unconditionally 

How to walk through hurts pains as well as happy - 

through it all

love remains the same..

Moments I wish to freeze 

wrapping my arms around it

forever frozen in time

It warms my heart..

A love that will stand the test of time and beyond..

You are my story of life