Melancholy Heart

life is full of mystique

the unexpected causing us to always seek..

some uncertainties shrouded in mysteries to great to grasp

leaving it’s unforeseen moments creating our past..

I may look the same

sound the same 

Feel the same 

But I have no name 

My insides screaming for all we can’t see..

my heartbeat - once your haven - 

come to me 

lay your head to rest where it longs to be 

as the sounds of the beat bring you home to the retreat of Me..

We are circling the sun 

open your eyes so you can see..

Let our hearts feel how it used to be..

I’ll always need you as the moon says hello

to the sun as it eclipses its’ glow..

I’ll follow you anywhere as long as it’s everywhere in this life of the great unknown..

You & Me

The silence around you is louder than usual 

Crazy as it seems 

Crazy as it is

the radio silence drives me..

mutations of your heart..

The more extreme 

the closer I feel I know your being..

Am I hallucinating 

Or is this real 

Because it’s you I no longer feel..

I’m grieving more than just you

For you see

I’ve lost me

we are one person

We are two alone 

Always multiplying into the unknown 

Now I’m not so sure 

was i you 

Or

Am I me..

Mind games

a collection of choices..

Do they make you 

Break you 

forsake you..

Pretenses..

masquerade slipping away 

The loose ends fall nicely at my feet 

You believe I can wrap it up nice and neat..

I’m magical, incredible such a treat..

You’re aren’t in love with me you see..

You’re in love with you and 

How you feel when I make you real..

Your hurts have been harsh 

They hit you like steel

I’m a source of energy 

bringing you back to life 

helping you let go of strife..

Let me pull back the shades 

revealing all the charades..

I know you’re weakness 

It’s freedom in the madness

The more mad, the more free.. revel in who you choose to be..

it’s a new dawn 

A new day 

A new you..

Turn the Page

I see empty space through your face as time stands still..

Those child eyes alive with fear that always see more than there is 

I see it too

I travel through you 

Sitting beautifully still and feeling everything you do 

Miles away - you still shine through 

completing everything I thought I knew

Come what may I won’t fade away, though it’s hazy and turning gray..

memories will hold me

And carry us through 

There’s no escaping the fate of you..

I’ll keep you safe as I tuck us in and brace for the phase about to begin..

What’s etched on the heart is here to stay though the words keep changing day by day..

we may put to rest the story we knew

But the pages keep turning for me & you..

Something of us..

aging and sagging in place of the smiles 

Exhaustion and tiredness instead of sweet miles

Our eyes becomes shaded and jaded with time 

And genuine hopefulness turns on a dime 

But stand where He is and hold out your hand 

He sees beauty and grace across my face 

Restoring and loving me despite my haste 

Because of His wonderfulness I can finish this race..

I love the nothing that makes me long to be that something of us..

Puppet Man

Pull your string 

Watch you beam

and act like it is all as it seems..

your house looks like it’s made of stone - strong and solid to the bone..

Opened you wide 

hidden inside 

is an inner layer filled with hate - no one able to knock down that gate..

Moments that words can no longer reach - 

someone like you they cannot teach

though You’re gone - i see your face 

I always say you only need space 

Give me the time - give me your mind 

I’ll grind out your insides as you unwind..

set up new wiring and restring you throughout-

pulling them tight until they’re just right..

as you move about with sheer delight,

your light will once again learn to shine bright..

Fairy Dust..

I loved you before I knew what it was

My heart calling out before I could verbalize your name..

Walking toward you before I understood you existed 

A longing - I felt

a yearning - I taste

a reckoning of the soul to be made whole..

It beckons me..

I envy the peace of the dead 

The quiet in the head-

one I’ve never known..

They want me to hold on

Feel the heartbeat - don’t give in to defeat..

My beginning never got to start 

Now I ask you - put me in the ground 

Let me end where I began

I can’t exist in this magical land 

Let me be the fairy dust in your hand.

Caged

Caged 

Why the inferno raging within..

you’re lost in the haze 

Hidden in the blaze

It’s not in the look you create 

Nor in the steps you make 

Nor in the pretenses you strive to fake

Let the smoke choke out who you aren’t..

Don’t forget who you are..

each breath taken with care, purpose, passion..

deeply imbedded within 

taste the goodness - feel the greatness -

live the fullness of life..

Give to yourself what you give to me

Such a beautiful human that needs to be free..

Wonderful beautiful you 

Burn fiercely 

shine brightly 

walk strongly 

unleash yourself from the games alight in your mind-

free from the lies being told

and leave behind the stories waiting to unfold..