the rain came..

You chose to stay 

chasing the sun until my heart you won..

Clearing the melancholy 

sharing the joy..

The unknown looming 

My eyes watching 

pondering the beauty you bring to my heart..

In the losses 

The dark spaces 

you continued to give..

The rain came 

each drop washing away the old..

You didn’t run

Turning us around 

we’ve begun...

Beauty mark..

you’ve taught me well

you’ve  loved me long 

showing me I do belong.. 

accept what is

the fight is done 

no escaping from the one..

it’s all within 

the storm inside

letting go I will not hide..

showing me scars I never knew 

you trace them all through and through..

cherishing the bruises 

Loving me deeply 

your beauty mark stamps them 

it completes me..

So can love..

You cover my soul in the whisper of your words..

inspire and delight me 

filling me whole..

Tender, captivating 

connected throughout,

Waxing eloquently about my heart 

If pain can echo

So can love

a bit of madness from above.. 

No mystery in the quiet  

no fear in the unknown..

a challenge to my mind

a miracle to my heart..

i am but clay 

pliable and willing from the start..

beautiful creation 

as your words shape me 

your love turns me

molding my way..

Drift away..

words now elude me

It’s just not the same..

I scream out your name 

to the silence reverberating the emptiness of pain..

my mind lost in time 

searching for the place that was once mine..

i took your hands 

we joined life 

together we faced all its’ strife..

I feel you here

yet you’re no where near.. 

I quietly watch as you subside 

You are the one my heart can’t hide..

rare 

Beautiful 

Uniquely you 

A recipe of our own 

we honed to share..

You heighten my senses 

awaken my core 

my soul is fighting strong to belong once more..

with each breath you breathe 

I grieve..

for I know what I know 

as you slowly drift away.. 

The kindest love is letting you go..

will I stand 

Will I sink 

as I slip to the brink 

when your fingers loosen mine for the very last time..

The map of you..

we've lived 

we've loved 

you fill my soul 

I mapped out the route of loving you whole..

it’s endless & growing 

as life moves you about

in its’ all knowing 

it shows all your sides 

even the inaccessible parts you try to hide..

there’s beauty within 

the hidden treasures of your heart..

a collection of all that’s been and to be

has taken us places pinned for you and me..

our worlds always turning 

shifting us so

melding your pieces into mine as we go..

one step at a time 

let’s walk toward the spaces where adventure awaits us..

Inevitable..

arms flail open 

life spins you round 

staying up as you hit

the ground 

I feel you crumble in my outstretched arms 

the tears you hide 

my heart soaks up inside..

not by accident 

nor design

we were granted time..   

let’s live

let’s give

somethings lost somethings gained 

one thing is certain

we won’t stay the same..  

there’s more than this -

more than the worst thing it has done -

love may have lost

it comes at a cost.. 

you will live on within 

immortal in me 

I’ll be your voice and 

live out the choice you fought to have.. 

I love your smile 

wish you’d stay awhile..

bold in your walk

a sight to behold 

There is beauty in the inevitable

or so I’ve been told.. 

Rains in her heart..

silenced heart 

no where to start..

lips tremble with fear

closing them tight 

she’s filled with fright..

If she lets her tongue loose 

will she hang by the noose..

what is right 

what is wrong

where do you belong..

why so afraid..

sway with the moments 

bend with the flow..

today is yesterday forgotten 

let it go..

Lost in tomorrow’s unknown 

it rains in her heart 

Washed away by the tides of history

let’s restart..

Trace the moments 

as your mind rewinds 

let it find you back to mine..

Bound..

Scale it down 

soften the blow

Fleeing from the gust that throws me so..

slipping away 

unafraid 

reality or fiction 

who’s to say..

Unrequited dreams 

How loud they scream

saying so much more 

I choose to ignore..

walking along the gentle shores 

The peace it roars

so beautifully loud 

Hidden well within this spell 

Twine me up 

Bind me tight 

the shroud of you is my delight..

Between the lines..

Line by line

the words keep time

each designed to mark you mine..

Eyes wide open 

Hungry heart

seeking truth from the start 

we grow, we mold 

we cave, we fold

between the lines 

Our story is told..

Page by page 

We are made new

grown from all we didn’t know..

Our story 

left to share and teach 

that love is a gift 

It inspires us best.. 

In time 

for each 

the curtain must fall..

intertwined souls through it all...

an adventure lived 

a tale told 

though grounded now 

it will never grow old 

our hearts a sieve 

so much to give..

Onto the stage..

no moments wasted..

yesterday’s are disappearing..

Dreaming the dreams 

scheming my things 

bringing them to life

before I lose sight of any landmark to my heart that leads me there..

The devil is in the details they say

play it out anyway

Quiet souls, feisty goals 

we broke all rules..

history shared

with so much care

Your essence radiates through the tear..

If It wasn’t a dream before the break

my heart is now 

fully awake..

walking onto the evolving stage with fright, delight and anticipation 

the unknown grabs my soul and I am whole..

feet tracing the lines that will wind me there 

here I come 

without a care..

Dopamine

straight to my heart 

electrifying love 

you own my brain in all that remains.. 

I’m up

I’m down with you around 

chemically addicted I hit the ground..

my euphoria 

my bliss 

afraid to let go..

what will I miss 

will I sleep walk through this 

all things in strife..

I’ll take the pain

All things to gain 

when it leads to the one where my heart remains..

He smiles...

he smiles...

golden embers shining through.. 

untouchable, unreal in all he knew..

A creature of perfection stood him still

garnering the attention of anything real..

magical powers within her soul 

intertwine his 

making him whole..

Exquisite magnificence - how can it be..

hypnotic brown eyes say much in their glow 

igniting a bright smile with lips of gold..

Beauty so rare, it’s one of a kind

A gift to all of mankind..

vibrant and real - his zeal overflows 

her aura exudes kindness and love  

her ambience sets the stars above..

she’s oblivious, unaware of all the stares 

her innocence an appealing and charming delight 

he smiles in awe at such a sight..

She’s graceful and carefree in all her ways 

flowing through the days as floating clouds 

she lights the way like the rays of the sun..

this goddess 

this wonder 

her beauty within

flows like the sea from his heart to his feet..

She conquers, she rules

she’s strong with reason 

his angel his love

For her he’ll do treason..

watch her go

let her be 

her strength is her 

She will always be free..

Not as we are..

Drunk on you 

Obliterated clean

higher than high till Im wiped out of sight 

I see things as I am

Not as we are..

seeing without eyes 

you have delivered me whole 

The absence of guilt doesn’t free you 

from stealing my soul..

done it 

did it 

you’ve stolen my past 

it’s not who I am 

I’m only a mask..

Beware what you dream

your wishes aren’t what they seem..

Fond of my walls

How far will we fall..

won’t you tell me now 

all the things you fear 

I’m ready to hear..

Hands around my throat 

hold me tight 

a sliver of me you break 

I’ll hold you dear 

let me be clear 

I’ll be your best nightmare..

rain is just rain..

conditions created 

Scars circle the heart

Rain is just rain 

I drowned from the start

lost site of my landmark  

with the losses blue..

You light up the dark night

Magic bright..

doling out pieces of you 

memories delight..

black & blue 

I’ll bruise for you 

the blood beneath my feet 

you help renew..

a richness, a peace

has settled me new 

a sanctity to just being 

I never knew..

few attain this goodness 

it’s sacred, it’s rare

for you I will bear the wounds and the hurt..

scarred for life with love and all its’ strife..

Perfected chaos

The silent moments when the unknown roars 

unbearable is the pain

certain nothings gained..

silently walk with me 

enter the night with me

let’s quiet the storm

embrace the space between us that keeps me warm..

It’s hard to find the sun 

in all that’s begun

Chaos and perfection 

gnaw at my charred soul

slow it down and face it 

let it make me whole..

There is always beauty in the ugly truth 

‘wherever you go 

there you are’

More than the sum of all you see..

The soundlessness has banished the critics that harness my soul..

scars will bleed

the disease of me will no longer be..

the fears are silenced into the atmosphere..

Reverie

lost in ones delight 

Turn down the noise 

Turn down the light 

Take me back to the good ole days..

Where ways made sense 

A daydream wasn’t a trance 

Your vision had reason-not just a hallucination..

an impractical idea

A fanciful thought 

Was what one sought..

take me to the past 

where the good things last 

paint me a picture of long ago 

days of yore once more.. 

Erased...

words flooded my senses 

heart slamming the fences 

you left in your wake..

Asthmatic reaction - allergic to the lies i sanctioned..

I’m a walking book 

wrinkled heart bleeding out 

pierced by your hook..

my heart expressed through each phrase you possess..

my pain has been published through all that you gain

every word, every sentence and paragraph remain..

dreams like thunder

Lightning was desire 

charred us up 

it’s no wonder..

Slowly erasing all that is you 

letter by letter 

this paper heart gets better..

false memories so dear

as you disappear.. 

Take flight..

wings like stone

jagged to the bone

Cuts so deep 

how long will you steep.. 

Something’s amiss within your soul 

What will it take to make you whole..

Pieces of my heart stir with your words  

slicing and dicing until they’re not heard..

An image that has left a permanent mark on my heart..

You press me hard 

You press me soft 

It comes out the same 

Calling your name..

Slowly unfold me

Discover you don’t know me 

Clip those wings 

Set them free 

feel the melody they choose to sing..

It will always be me

It will always be you..

Let’s wing our way through it 

Glide your way home how it should be..

Take flight with me..

Shame storm quieted..

Shame storm quieted..

Love me till the lights go out

Love me till my shouts aren’t doubt 

let the love go quiet as I rise above 

in the darkest hour you shine bright 

your shadow overpowering me 

Pure delight..

I can walk upright - shamed no more 

cobwebs have withered into dust 

my sight has been cleansed 

I will do what I must 

I’m not something wrong.. 

I belong

Morning Sun..

my light, my warmth 

the force that keeps me moving 

Tail wind so strong

I hear you roar

turning my direction 

watch me soar..

An ending eclipsed by 

A beginning 

Pieces of each other 

we are always winning..

Give way..

Lamenting 

mourning 

hurting inside..

burying you deep

as if it’s something to hide..

Grieving is love that’s exploded inside..

fragments remain 

keeping you sane 

Just enough to shoulder the blame..

Shadow boxing here 

Shadow boxing there

It’s worn you down

leveling you to the ground..

Stop fighting yourself 

don’t do it alone 

step into new space as you roam..

What is dead may never die 

let it tear through the shadows of your sky..

May it thunder through to the silence of your heart..

hear the sounds of freedom as darkness gives way to light..

let the mourning change with the morning bright..

your mind will rewind

to promises of old 

reliving stories you’ve been told 

as it fills your soul 

it will make you whole..

Diseased by love

the more i know 

the further i go 

sinking into that rabbit hole...

It owns me

dethrones me 

setting apart my heart

Bleeding me through depleting what i knew..

Part of me dies as i come alive..

beautiful disease

do what you please

cure me from the rot that eats my heart..

messy, chaotic, tangled and swept 

adversely affected is all that I’ve kept..

Strange steps take us back 

The cinder beneath guiding our feet 

our minds go quiet 

While our hearts riot..

in awe 

amazed, uncertain

unsure

of all that our mind had never heard..

i hope this illness 

can heal us 

from all we’ve come to be

You’ve chiseled me down 

I’ll wear this madness of you 

like a crown..

Unstuck

dare to be different 

changing our hold

bold in what we know 

the older we grow

wisdom is ours 

Ours to behold..

bend like a willow

strong like an oak

Life will be peaceful 

as we lighten our yoke.. 

You leveled the play 

in that way of yours 

jumbled my heart

got me to stay..

Door is wide open

Hinges remain 

Haunt me please 

Leave your stain 

Distinct and different 

I’ll not be the same...

Medicine heart

Untraceable are your ways 

Unsearchable your love 

Beyond knowing 

my heart seeks you out 

Unchanging is my beat for you 

the human touch 

embodying all we are 

connecting us 

directing us 

all we become 

into a beautiful one.. 

Living each moment like we are dying

I wrap my arms around you in this time..

Take my hand 

One last stand 

Drown in me 

One last breath 

as gasp together what is left..

Beauty Scars

the deepest wounds 

are my dearest friends 

they follow me through till the end..

Teaching me, showing me, guiding me on..

With each gash

I learn me strong 

cherishing the wrongs, the hurts, the pain

All of life is mine to gain.. 

I may be wiser, maybe I’m not

but I’m open to live..

pliable, limber  

wanting to give 

twisting and turning with all there is..

I’ve soaked it all up 

abundant and full..

Life slips in 

carves us to win

the scars are my beauty 

time will tell

I wear them well..

walk with me 

talk with me 

hold my hand 

the privilege is yours to 

know where I stand..

Color my world..

I see you in black and white 

Your soul clear as day..

You light up my world in colors bright..

Closer than two hearts can tell

Crazy beautiful is our hell

We’re fire, we’re ice 

we’re anything but nice, 

yet we don’t think twice about rolling the dice..

we may be dark but burn bright with light 

reflecting all the rays of the sunlight

a black and white delight..

Two faces..

You look

You wonder 

you question

you guess

Judging until you’re completely undressed 

heaped on

the floor in a shredded mess..

I’m her, I’m she, I’m them, I’m we 

and the loss of me is the new conquest..

I am now two

split through and through

No longer true to me or you 

I’m buried alive 

nowhere to hide..

gotta dig deep to find my feet 

rolling back the ignorance 

walking in bliss

Looking for what I somehow missed 

Drawing back my spirit 

bringing back my mind 

two souls rejoined

until we are one 

No longer afraid of all that’s begun..

Untamed..

Steady as we go 

settling me so

gently we flow

rhythmically letting go..

the winds take a change 

chaos rules the day and we blow every which way..

nothing stays 

Nothing remains 

to what avail 

What have we gained..

unexplainable, unchangeable, 

incredible we..

it’s you, it’s me 

It’s what we see 

when lost at sea..

undeniably real

sets us still..

ours moments untamed 

we are beautiful 

we are no name..

Smile within...

I found a smile within,  sweet season 

coming round again..

sometimes you win

sometimes you lose

sometimes the blues settle in..

make a choice

choose..

It’s all been said

it’s all been done 

both feet forward until

I’ve won..

In my quiet unbound

I shall remain footloose 

While I watch life go round and round

my smile has been found..

Regretful delight..

Bittersweet you..

painful and pleasant regretful delight..

your aroma soothes my soul

such a pitiful sight..

my heart skips a beat with the aftertaste sweet..

in my haste

I failed to see

the deceit,

the greed 

and the pretense of your need..

I bow out with grace 

no hate on my face 

leave me be I plead

left alone 

to wallow in disgrace..

I harbor no ill will..

for still - be as it may 

I will display 

Only the good 

my home full of memories 

a mixture of sad with a heart full of glad..

an ending that must come - though it leaves me undone..