She Stood Up

Darkness was falling upon their world 

could life be this cruel she wondered

It spread through him like a wildfire.. 

Like a virus with no cure

devouring her sweet love from the inside out

No warning without notice 

Threatening to blanket any glimpse of life.. of hope..

How could she save them

Protect her babes from the nightmare unfolding before them

The suffocation unreal and much too much to bare..

Her knees buckled

Legs to weak to hold her up she collapsed unaware that she hit the floor..

Unaware of the pain shooting up her legs

Paralyzed by fear by shock anger hurt confusion..

Could she do this

Can she walk through this 

It's her strength they will need Her love that will fill them cover them.. 

Their means to carry on..

She buries her face in her trembling hands, anguished by the pain that is smothering her..

Who will cover me she moans.. 

Please - she begged to no one and everyone -

let me close my eyes and change my reality 

She was immobilized 

Yet she could feel her arms flailing  

Could see the splash of tears as they hit the smooth wood beneath her.. The puddle growing as her heartbreak rolled down her face..

His smiling face..his gentle touch.. Their loving moments flashed before her..

And she knew

She stood up in her mind 

Screaming shouting at her thoughts - fighting to hold back the monsters swallowing her up 

On her knees she felt arms wrapping around her..

She looked down through her tears and realized the limbs belonged to her.. 

The essence of him enveloping her and with certainty she knew she would be enough 

Because he would always cover her.. never leaving her to stand alone 

she will be strong in the gift of his love

So she stood up

barely audible as her lips quivered - goodbye love..

She opened her arms to it

willing to be split open..