Deadly Love

she hears sounds 

Sees the lips moving

meaningless words..

The praises bestowed upon her full of empty air

Choking her silent until she couldn't care 

muting her with expectations 

silencing her with his cold indifference 

He shut her down by dismissing her thoughts 

Unaware that she was disappearing into the words..

she heard & felt all the judgement until she wore it like her skin 

buried underneath 

She became invisible..

No one saw the destruction she had become 

All was not well within the walls of her home

Nothing would revive the corpse of her soul

he loved her cruelly until she was no more

Escape Artist

The stillness surrounds her

It's all familiar as her eyes open 

bringing life to her mind

Her heart hearing the words before they escape his lips..

everything has changed everything remains the same..

all of life's moments filtering through her as she hungrily laps it up 

absorbing every drop 

Ravenous for change 

Clinging to hope 

Believing every moment has its' reason and each step a purpose.. 

the very precipice she teeters at determining whether she flees or stays.. 

Desperate to settle 

anxious for her heart to breathe 

She simply chooses to believe

As if it will all fall into place 

Knowing the highest cliff she could jump from

Is trust 

there's no reason to run anymore 

leaving behind the chains that strangled her heart 

and the handcuffs that bound her tight 

the ropes slip off her feet  

and the old becomes new 

She is confined no more..

Quiet Roar..

Quiet Roar..

rumbling 

shaking 

jumbling me to my core 

not sure how it started 

when it began

or where it will end

was there a hello

Is there a goodbye  

is it from within 

Where does it go..

are you just a dream 

I have direction no more 

I'm laying flat out on the floor 

I'm going to love you a little bit more 

Until i hear that quiet roar 

Not Today...

Everything is spinning 

all meshed together 

Good slipping away,

bad gaining power,

happy & sad 

all bleeding as one 

Threatening to bury us in its' mess

we are fading in&out..

Who will break the fall

we will not shatter..

Though like broken sticks and broken stones turn to dust, so will our bones 

we are still standing strong 

not blowing in the wind yet

Not today..

Hold me tight 

we will walk & fall united 

Together as one 

You're my hero 

I'm your weakness 

We are the best of it all

Made from love 

Here's to you & me

and our hearts' content..

Deafening Sounds

Who made these sounds the ruler of her heart..

wondering where it began

what is the purpose of those words spoken..

Each syllable slamming into her like an explosion of shards..

Her emotions flying in every direction 

the aftermath unthinkable 

ripping her apart

The stain runs deep 

Her hands tarnished picking up the pieces 

cleaning up the hurts 

The mess has beat her mind numb

Her heart bleeds 

and the truth spills all over it..

It's never enough for him 

She never has been..

She sits in the darkness waiting for the light 

hoping to understand the words that dictate her heart..

MainStay

Love 

My oldest friend 

Do not abandon me 

disintegrating wasn't part of the plan..

We've journeyed the miles hand in hand 

there is no beginning 

surely there is no end

I won't let go

My foundation, my anchor 

My cornerstone 

We can sail through it all

The sky won't fall 

no overthinking 

No sinking 

Redemption is our friend 

It will pull us up and pull us out 

We extend from the tip top to the bottomless bottom 

Always were, always will..

You are the mainstay of my heart.. 

Locked Up

Doing time 

heart shackled to the moments we've left behind Lock me down in this space 

The confinement of you

The chains may rattle 

the cage may shake 

Yet nothing will unchain the love locked within us

Come what may

Some things remain the same 

I wish to be in your custody 

restraints I will never fight to undo.. 

screw in the bolts 

tighten the locks 

Held captive by us

Doing life with you

my prison of love..