Running Free

Full of life and love in the liveliest of ways

gradually percolating through me until you filled each pore of my heart 

filling me with an expectant energy 

exuberant animated alive

Your heart is speaking loud

even in your absence 

my heart is flying 

It can't be contained

I find you in my waking hours 

I feel you in my slumber 

All we are is true 

from beginning to end 

A day like today-once upon a time-defined us 

creating such truth that love would never be the same 

You were designed to inspire and awaken my soul

With each word we became us 

I'll always think of you as me  forever to be

memories alone will get us through 

Chasing the dream that I see

My heart is running free 

as it should be..

Broken Mind

clenching so tight her hands hurt

every muscle tense as perspiration bubbled on her soft pale skin

she gasped, as she realized the battle was done 

The long hard struggle was no more..

Breathing in deeply, she fell to her knees collapsing in tears..

Her tired mind no longer racing, the turmoil silenced..

She tried putting thoughts together; 

wondering how she'd ever breathe again..

She wanted to

She wanted to try but all she could do was cry

She told herself to move, to leave it all behind

But without him, there was no place to go..

She couldn't fathom the unthinkable 

The dark night beckoned her with promises untold

Closing her eyes, her hands fell open as her face softened..

Her soul gave way to the dark night 

What had begun was done..

Numb no more..

Tender whispers of love thundering through me

I hear it trying to break through

Tears rolling gently down my face as they silently splash the floor.. 

There is no anger, no rush, no push, nor condemnation in these emotions.. Just the sweetest tug of assurance that life is awaiting..

encouraging me to leave behind the fear that binds and chokes so tightly 

The whispers & tears delicately wrapping around me ever so tenderly 

determined to draw me back into life 

Until they uncover my heart from the dark shadows that have numbed it..

More Than Me

Yesterday no more..

Death has been my constant companion for many a days now 

flirting with my mind 

taunting me

Trying to spin around me like a spider webbing his victim..

cloaking me with fear

I battle through 

Death won't take me 

It shakes me 

It wakes me 

But will never break me..

Death can't own me 

I've been set free

I'll face my trepidations with courage for I know I'll grow..

understanding not all things are easy to accept 

while some things are worth dying for..

I have no control so I'm letting go 

I'm not behind me 

nor in front 

I'm right here right now - in the present - this is the moment that counts 

I will live it like I mean it while I can 

because life is more than me..

Truly Madly

Transformed 

I've been utterly and wonderfully changed 

You sustain the rhythms of my heart

It's all swirly and you let it fly 

You allowed me to reveal myself 

live myself 

love myself 

I've lived in dark so long

Never knew my own worth or inner strength 

You let me in to discover me 

breaking down all illusions I died in

Metamorphosed me

creating a riot in my heart 

it's a wonderful world 

an incredible adventure to be wildly mad with you..

Nothing is Something

Told my heart to begin again 

a mind is a powerful thing 

Let the blood flow 

hear it beat 

Feel the heat of life as it stirs within me

Stepping out into the light of day 

All at once everything changes 

How much does nothing weigh..

Almost enough to crush you

I can live without knowing 

Hope without seeing 

Feel without touching 

I won't hide anymore 

I will not hesitate 

I don't want to

I'll never take more than I give

I've learned the value of it all

Nothing is always something 

and so it begins

Let It Rain

She knows what's at stake..

fear will not own her 

she readies herself.. 

Bundling up for the storm that life has set before her 

shuddering at the very thought of giving in.. 

Losing hope - the wonder of life

For without it she will cease to exist..

That will not happen 

She will grow in the downpour 

Standing strong 

remaining curious 

That thought makes her smile 

It is a beautiful word 

Curious

always wondering

always growing 

She will remain loud 

For her bones will waste away if she stays silent 

So let it rain 

She is rooted in 

This storm will not shake her