Thursday, September 24, 2015

Let's Walk Backwards

The one who never leaves my mind.. 
The one who has invaded my dreams my heart my moments..
The one who makes me crazy happy 
And just plain ole crazy All my days
Walking side by side 
Strong together 
Weathering it all..
wishing you were right here
As always 
Before life's changes took over..
Let's walk backwards 
And get lost there
Is it possible..
I can feel you 
the essence of you..
And I'm covered in your love..
grateful that memories allow me to live one moment at a time any way i want..
forever grateful for you ❤️

Saturday, September 12, 2015

I Got You Babe❤️

So it begins..
words so harsh her mind throws them out..
drowning out his voice 
The finality of it all..
"Two to three days is what i give him" he says..
What ?
What does that mean exactly?
Such cruel words 
It won't register
Confusion lines her face
Two three what? 
Till you fix him?
Till you give him back to me? Till he is no more?
No way can this be.. 
He's her lifetime 
He's her person
He's her 'I got you babe'
To grow old with and share grandbabes together..
So many more moments to come 
To share
To live and laugh together 
We are not done 
Her eyes beg scream shout plead 
Crying silently 
Saying all she can't speak out loud..
Breathing in deeply 
Holding back the hysteria 
She Thinks of her girls 
Drifting to happier moments..
Not yet she says
Not today..
She gathers her things 
Unaware of her surroundings
Drs in and out 
Beeping machines
Nurses IV's meds 
Murmurs of voices 
Words unheard..
Seeking escape 
She drives away..
Curled up in their bed she is safe 
Relaxing she starts to dream 
Peace covering her as she feels his love..
hugging his pillow 
she smiles 
as tears fall gently into the night..

Saturday, September 5, 2015

Doesn't mean Goodbye



You are me
I am you 
How do I move on 
Deep inside my bones you live 
How can I move on
You're more than just a name 
A memory ... Words 
You are love 
My love
In a moment it all changed 
I cried out your name 
Only Silence cried back 
Not able to hear you 
Feel you
untouchable you've become 
Yet Your presence so alive in me 
you are gone I must be reminded 
A truth I wish to ignore
Life will not let me
Moments come and go without you
Life Happening all around me  
In those moments I feel you gently slipping away
quietly 
Helping set me free..
Kind unselfish love you are
Always were..
Fears & questions your love is releasing me from..
Your love quieting the chaos of my heart 
Your love letting me go to live again..
love again 
Another chance at life
So much I learned from you 
Profound 
I'm not losing you for a second time
You are still here
In my heart my mind my soul 
Standing at the end of my life 
We will always be ❤️

Friday, September 4, 2015

Always Tomorrow.. not always


They You I Them
We are all the same
Wanting needing searching yearning 
for kindness
A Gentle touch
Sweet gestures
Simple caring words
Filled by it..
Puts a smile on our face 
Just to know someone
Anyone remembers us
Thinks of us
Simply cares..
What has happened..
Why do we find this so hard to do..
Why do we stop doing things that matter..
Too busy
do it later 
tomorrow..
Whatever 
Is any reason good enough?
What are we fighting so hard for?
Always chasing life
Yet Letting it slip through our fingers..
Always after.. Later..
After is too late
Later never comes 
Don't drown in regrets
Let's live our lives gratefully&thankfully
There is no time like now..


Friday, August 28, 2015

Awakened 🌟



She closed her eyes
deeply inhaling..
Hearing the crashing of the waves 
Tasting the salt in the air 
Gentle breeze 
Squawking seagulls 
Lost in the aroma of her awakened senses
She sees it all..
sand shining from the reflection of the sun
Warmth to her worn mind
Lanky Legs stretched out 
Tilted head 
Gypsy hair all over the place 
Her thoughts giving into the mood 
A smile spreads across her face
There is time to feel now
The beauty of a cloudless sky
Hearing the squeals of laughing babes..
Feeling the rays soften as the sun sets
Nurturing to her mind..
Senses alive fed stimulated..
She absorbs it all
living every moment completely..
Feeling inspired 
In love with her life ❤️

Wednesday, August 19, 2015

Battlefield



Can't escape it
It follows 
Alive within
Push Pull Push Pull..
Always battling 
the mind&heart..
The heart wants what the heart wants 
The mind knows what the mind knows 
Who do you believe?..
Shouldn't be afraid..
Shouldn't be so unsure..
Not used to living there..
questioning things 
life always lived in an open book kind of way 
and happily..
This new chapter has changed it all up 
Without order.. 
Where did it start
And 
Is there an ending?
So many questions
Jagged thoughts
I don't know what it all means..
I do know it doesn't stop here 
I do know how I choose to see it is a choice 
I will choose to listen carefully 
Hear The laughter
See the beauty  
feel the peace
Live the hope 
Smile at my fears
rendering them powerless 
The battle is worth it***

Wednesday, August 12, 2015

Want What You Want but...



a work of love in progress
That's what we are❤️
be good be kind be gentle love You
No one does it better
Searching yearning seeking 
In every other place
Trying to fill that void
It will leave you empty Unsatisfied & unhappy
Blinding you from truths 
Binding you up
Shutting out your own joys 
Want what you want 
But love what you have
Love who you are 
Sets you Free to love others
Love just to love 
Surrender to it 
So much fun it is..
An unending journey 
After all
It is always changing 
Don't miss out on your own life 
It is full of Sweet surprises in the most unlikely places🌟