Bloody Victory

The wounds are hemorrhaging..

the torture to great to bear.. the heart oozes with agony.. the ugly, the hurt, the groans and moans drowning her out..

no longer concealed within her psyche

there are gaping holes everywhere..

puncture wounds that bandages can not contain, as pieces of her are scattered about..

the stench of her rotting soul engulfs her

The suffocation causing her to run

She looks around blindly, unable to see through her shaded eyes..

gasping for air

desperate enough

She welcomes the thought of newness..

of being rescued from herself 

for she has finally seen the light..

No Such Thing..

Theories..

scientific, romantic, outlandish -

All prolific in our minds..

daydreams that give color to my black & white world..

whimsical fantasies created in the hopes of ones' playful wishes..

perhaps an obsession never a reality..

and then you appeared..

I lost my footing as fantasy and reality blurred.. 

you became the skin wrapped around my skeleton..

Plausible..

the muscle between my skin and bones changing me..

You are my theory..

Anything is possible..

Heart & Mind

In a lightning quick descent of madness,

It began..

the storm clearing 

Sun appearing 

and the noises changing..

nothing making sense 

no right, no wrong

It just was..

Her mind incapable of stopping it - plans grew.. details forming all on their own -

so thorough - she was frightened..

A plethora of firsts..

her hands shaking as she placed them on the sides of her head - willing the thoughts to stop as they ran rampant..

A quiet hum that was ever present exploding into a loud crescendo..

That only her ears could hear

Only her mind could know

Only her heart felt

Others deaf to it..

Welcoming the unknown 

She feels a strength in the unity of her heart & mind..weakness falling to the wayside..

She will walk before the scorching sun and welcome the warmth as it shares its' love with her..

High.. Low..

Love is love 

grand, in all its' splendor

It stands alone 

magical in all its' moments..

euphoric 

manic

The highest high 

The lowest low

twist & turns that bring you to your knees 

filling your heart to the brim

wild moments within

until it overflows..

Take a shot of courage 

Give it your best 

Accept it back with grace 

be humble, be open

Forgiving & soft

Let your passion be unbridled in all things

your love be the place they rest their heart..

And it will be you who is set free..

Overcome

Overcome 

Though the depth of despair lays bare your soul

There's a beauty to your willingness to be broken 

your openness to overcome is breathtaking 

A mystery I'll always try to understand 

the warmth of your sun shines through 

thawing the icy cold 

I see the whole world in your eyes 

your struggle giving you an inner strength 

that is unexplainable 

refusing to fall

You are a vessel of hope 

Giving us strength 

teaching us all monsters want the same thing:

destruction...

never let them take over

You are more than the despondency within

You are the light that guides me home 

Animal Cry

a heart wrenching cry wail..

so visceral - I feel you cut to my core..

Just let go

What used to be doesn't count anymore..

I'll teach you how to do it new

I won't let you say goodbye 

I won't watch you give up 

You cry out silently - 

eyes begging for help..

Osee what's before you..

I will be the she who holds out her hand

The anchor who won't let go..

Hear the scream of my heart 

listen to the loudness of my animal cry for you..

I'm the beast who will fight your demons 

until your mind is no longer weary, 

Until your heart is beating on its' own 

Until your legs find the strength & courage to carry you home

Because that is what love does..

Dust in the wind..

The feel so real 

The fine powder of you covering me 

dust in the wind

nerve endings fire up with the scent.. 

familiar connective tissues back to life 

the debri of we falling back into a stable arrangement of lifelong hopes & dreams..

Yet the dusting of you never settles

as the gust blows through me 

A cold blast of wind rips through my heart 

pulling you from me 

as I clutch on to the remnants of what was..