Orphaned Heart

Beautiful trauma 

what have we done..

How do we stop what has begun..

So bright on fire is our love.. 

So high on life we live above..

The highest highs lifting us up

Until our cup overflows with the sweetest of love..

something dark has taken control 

sorrow has invaded into our soul

overshadowing the light we know..

I’m lost and rambling as I roam-

crying out is my love, as it desperately seeks to bring you home..

Desolate and all alone..

My heart soars and shatters simultaneously

certain I’ll find you -

yet, sure I’m on my own 

With no place to call home..

deprived - abandoned 

we are now dead..

I hope to survive with you in my head..

Immortal Us

 

Selective thoughts

forget me not..

memory loss - if it isn’t you and I carrying the cross

the gap too wide to fill - my life silently still..

We sit between chaos and peace  

a rare gift are the

moments we share to keep

the chaos spreading us here & there

Splitting us into pieces we can’t bear..

Yet the peace we share is beyond compare..

There is a deficit in my heart - one that shortchanges me if we are too far apart 

you alone are my home..

Some share love that reads like a poem-

then there are those that play out like an episode 

while others could fill a chapter..

Ours would be a book that continues through the ages

criss crossing all the stages as it gauges the wonder of us..

maybe I’m biased -maybe I’m skewed

But the chant of my heart determines the slant

There’s good, there’s bad and much to be had 

But only the good remains..

Fading...

Fading...

Hazy smoke danced around her

as if to grab her attention..

as it slowly faded into the air

She looked around wishing to care..

The sun-kissed faces

laughing and sharing of the different places..

she hid within the walls of her confined spaces..

voices asking who she was, why she was 

until she could no longer take it..

shielding her eyes 

Holding her breath, begging for rest 

from the demons she felt within her chest.. 

A light mist surrounded her 

And in her mental confusion 

she welcomed the haze as her safe place

evaporating there for the rest of her days.. 

Beyond the sad...

the sad is shifting 

the good is lifting  

I see with the heart of my eyes 

It’s no mystery you somehow missed me..

on an unmarked day

At an unknown hour

my heart came alive..

full, wild 

and thriving 

with all the commotion going on inside..

Time has put space between the sad and the good - as it should..

I miss you once upon another time..

you danced my heart full of sunshine and kisses sweet 

I’m moving beyond the sad 

glad I lived it well

my heart is where it was to be 

It is beautiful and free..

A blessing and a curse..

Blessed it be the mystery of love..

not to be solved -broken down or tamed..

Love has no name - it beats to its’ own game..

I lived for this endless wonder 

Thrived in its’ unspeakable beauty 

grew by the sounds of love 

until I never knew this kind of blue that it possessed..

my world went silent

sharpest quiet cut me down until 

my ears could no longer hear 

My heart could no longer bear..

Yet I’ll always care for this lovely game of love that causes such despair..

Cursed it be the mystery of love..

Free as the sea...

Jealous of the night that wraps you in its’ intoxicating moments..

The moon that rocks you tender as you slumber.. 

envious of the sun that shakes you gently with its’ morning hello..

Oh that you could see my light and how it revolves around you 

That my heart was still the beacon that lit you up..

You closed your eyes and it went black..

So I’ll grieve and 

My heart will bleed 

Yet I’m removing the shackles that bind me

I’ve done my time..

I won’t sulk anymore 

Nor dwell on the memories

I’ve kissed them goodbye 

No - I will not steep in sadness or misery like a bitter tea..

I choose to keep moving and let my heart be as free as the sea..

a part of your soul will always keep me whole.. 

Unlimited beauty

a tiny sprout 

That’s all it took 

to rejuvenate her beauty and make her whole 

springing her back to things untold..

a seed planted

Growing like a weed 

that changed something frightful into something beautiful..

You moved about her heart without getting trampled or torn apart..

changing the backdrop of her ugly 

you set her free from the limits of her life..

The iron bars melted from her soul 

She sees beauty everywhere she goes

The glimmer on the trees 

Dew on the grass

Sun kissed morning skies that disappear so fast 

And the hope that has closed the door to her ill-fated past..

There’s not a word for everything you’ve done but she needs you 

like the flowers will always need the sun..