Season change..

winter comes

winter goes..

Changes happening down below

as the sun is grooming 

Flowers blooming 

yet fear remains 

It is looming..

the warmth abounds

not in this room

the chill alone blooms and grows..

deeply seeded you is all it knows

covering me in a frigid cold..

Lying here thinking 

I wish for change

No longer willing to remain chained..

so much love - you’re here and there

The warmth is spreading through all I’ve dreaded 

Memories thawing the icy chill..

embracing the new

as the cold brews into spring 

coming with it new moments of you..

No longer focused on where I’ve been or what remains 

my look is up 

I’m feeling change 

one step forward 

Is how I’ll grow 

captivated for us 

Lost in the know..

Musings..

thoughts are everything..

seeping into

every pore of my being..

 nurturing my mind 

catering to my heart 

powering my soul..

imaginings that turn me inside out 

notions growing me in ways that hurt - 

I relate to both..

I couldn't -

wouldn't desert my musings..

they make me whole 

Those moments I get lost in

The imaginations that come to life 

sometimes causing strife

Absorbed into my core..

no need to steal back the moments

Or hide them deep

There will be no breach 

The daydreaming is steeped within my reach..

Light me bright..

perfection in our messy way

chaotic love rules our day..

It fills me up and 

Lights me bright 

I’d have it no other way..

I’d relive each day with all the messiness we create in its’ wake..

You are my smile 

deep and wide 

everything good that fills my insides

beautiful friendship in this sea of love 

You are endless loves’ delight..

Bound..

free in love 

Or owned by it..

lost or found..

either way -

bound..

the power of you is invisible to all

except to me.. 

the silent strength it possesses 

Owns my heart mind and soul..

the shrill of it should be visible for all to hear 

loud and clear..

Is love alive 

Does it ever die?

Why not let it be..

bury me knee deep 

In the beauty of we..

completely lost 

I am set free 

To the possessor of my being..

Unwritten law..

Grateful for the storm that brought us here..

weathering fears that crippled us

rising above the endless tears 

until it cleansed us..

no longer blue

things changed

no longer green and not seen..

traditions that begin anew

an unwritten law in our heart

Opened the door 

here’s where we start..

a glimmer of light 

holding us tight 

standing the test of time 

we keep hanging on 

allowing us to unwind..

Infinite

In that moment 

we became infinite..

Blazing through space 

creating an atmosphere I no longer fear..

The color of abyss eclipsed by the brightness within you..

Your eyes endless

reaching through to my soul

awakening a lifeless 

heart 

setting ablaze that spark..

the antidote to my death..

Into the storm...

Love - like the wind 

flows right through you.. 

all feeling, 

yet untouchable

strong, carefree, uplifting,

Yet invisible..

except to the heart that is shaped whole or left with holes

slowly hammered apart.. 

yet the breeze keeps blowing this way

Let it take you 

To the highest highs 

let your heart rise..

though all to soon 

the wind may shift direction

and the lowest lows somehow show at their own discretion..

let the gust carry you into the storm..

the gale always builds a tale of its’ own..

Empty space

words felt but never spoken

restlessly broken

They burn within..

my heart in two just to know you 

The places you’ve been 

The places you hide 

won’t allow me inside..

I’m building bridges crossing over 

the echo of your pain 

calls my name 

your screaming heart needing quiet..

nothing comes easily 

where do we begin..

fill the empty space 

There’s no escape 

we are the same 

Slowly pull together until we Are sane..

Fear no more...

All your moments 

I made them mine 

Thief in the night 

Heart bandits delight..

practically invisible 

What a fool 

a heart cannot be ruled..

You’re bleeding - depleted of what’s needed 

I bleed now too

Bruised with pain I caused you..

Silent tears 

Empty smiles 

you crumbled inside.. 

is it too late 

Let me see it straight..

I’ll fade into the night 

Do what’s right 

hesitate no more 

Fear is no longer at your door..

Hearts rewind

the rhythmic sound of your heart breaks the silence that threatens me..

The beating ever steady 

The pulse of my being..

So deeply connected 

Our rhythm in tune.. 

uncovering the secrets

I discover you new..

in the quiet of my mind

Our hearts rewind..

our love is a place
with 

no space or time..

when it all looks different 

and we can’t find our way 

the beat of your heart will keep my spirit alive 

and I’ll always remember us this way..

Old made new..

Old made new

It is all new 

this town of old..

as the simple beauty began to unfold 

Seeing it with new eyes

It all came alive..

It’s vibrant, it’s real 

awakens my soul..

enjoying watching people living their lives

laughing and chatting or 

lost in their thoughts -

moments that matter 

all at a cost..

Even those less fortunate-

the ones that reside outside-

show a sense of belonging, 

adding beauty to the nitty gritty of the hard life they hold, 

but never told..

These magnificent old buildings - the secrets they house - so many lives passed through their doors with the many stories hidden inside 

They groan and moan, as if they are waiting to share with us, the lives unknown..

The past brings me present 

I am reminded once more

That home is always home 

no matter how I’ve grown 

and old becomes new as it filters through you..

when the sun goes down..

Each change 

is another goodbye..

Doesn’t mean I’ll fall or that I’ll cry

I have learned to read between the lines..

I feel you in the empty 

I hear you in the quiet 

You are the rhythm that moves me 

stills me..

while life happens 

we keep grooving to our sound 

creating our own kind of tempo 

changes may come 

changes may go 

I will not fear

together we stand tall..

I know what love is 

And 

When the sun goes down 

You & I will still be found..

Beauty & chaos

gentle words, harsh ones

loud words, quiet ones

all telling us something..

they are golden moments

Rare, precious and fleeting..

changing us - enlightening us -

parts of each one

making a whole..

freeing, growing and all knowing 

we won’t walk this way again..

are you present 

or just there..

really seeing and aware of all the love and care 

that fill the atmosphere..

It is that air that fills our lungs with love, joy and despair..

I choose to care 

I’ll let your chaos be my beauty..

The shallow..

In the shallow now

far from the top 

The crash & burn don’t churn my insides much anymore..

I have let go 

discovering so much more than I thought I could know..

braved it out 

walked it through coming back to what i knew..

I love the past and its’ aftermath 

I thrive in the now 

I strive for tomorrow 

as i borrow the hope for all we dream of..

The light of that hope shutters the beat of my heart 

Fluttering my eyes and keeping me afloat..

there is no sinking 

there is no fear 

for only you 

fill my atmosphere..

Days of old

anticipation is 

running strong 

Thoughts and memories of days long gone..

nerves and excitement fill the air 

while some walk around to shy too share 

others are living, walking vibrant stories 

waiting to unfold with friends of old..

Father Time we can’t rewind — yet the past is vibrant in their minds..

we see it dancing in their eyes - the joy spills over and for a time 

past and present intertwine..

It’s good, it’s right 

their hearts delight and they let themselves get lost to the magic of the night..

And the days of old become moments of gold..

Broken bones

Raining in my heart

A cleansing of the old..

Renewing of a start 

A beacon of hope has begun exactly where I stand..

it’s not in the big things 

Nor the mountain tops high..

It’s the steady and 

The slow in the things we don’t know..

the moments in between 

The quiet unseen..

where the bones are scattered 

The feet are crushed

And all the craziness is silenced and hushed..

The bones come together as the rain gently flows..

reshaping and transforming hope as it grows 

I welcome the broken, 

the scars and the pain-

my heart keeps growing 

it’s never in vain..

Till death do us part..

Te Amo..

Grind me up 

there we are 

the aroma of love permeating the air..

Crushing, crumbled

my soul is bare..

Fuego..

mixed in till there is not one degree of separation between you & me..

Te quiero..

no escaping the fate of us 

we are one..

Will it become our undoing 

Or are we already undone..

a love that makes many want to run 

settles me still..

Sabotaged my heart to the point of no return..

tecum usque ad mortem..

I will not set you free 

I savor the flavor of we..

Shadow dance...

I inherited your shadow..

The over lay

Of you was all I knew..

A reflected image of your love shone through 

guiding the way..

each footstep pushing me on 

making me strong

The hurried ones, the slow ones, the skipping ones, the stalled ones..

a shadow of love that covered me well..

I was brave enough to follow along 

l will shadow dance with you into obscurity..

You are the hand that holds the pen to that far away land 

our hearts dictating the plans..

I’m yesterday

The darkness returns 

cocooning me in its’ web of warmth and loneliness..

bringing you back 

and all we knew

All we know of our highs and lows..

we’ve been kissed by the rain as it washed away our pain 

We endured the fire as it branded our hearts..

another place 

Another time

our love would have never been erased..

my arms hold on to the empty space 

so hard to hold on to what’s gone 

Harder to let it go..

I am yesterday 

It is tomorrow..

Closing my eyes

I’ll feel it one more time

as I welcome in the dawn..

Only human..

I walk through the valley of the shadow of death 

I welcome it in 

desperate for rest 

I run till i fall in search of it all..

The charm of the quiet 

I’m under its’ spell 

I scream till I yell

hungry for anyone to look at me and tell..

I may be alone 

as my grasp gives way to the icy fingers on their own

no one there to warm my hand..

It’s ok - I understand..

The only way outward is inward 

Don’t think me coward

for there isn’t a lie I’d rather know than the truth..

Sweet death

stretched so tight I no longer feel..

the impenetrable wall

The divide growing 

as our hearts are sowing new paths..

Opposition to one another

Fighting for space in the canvas of your heart.. 

Until I say no more 

no more to saying yes

Freeing myself to choose..

Only when I’m free

Can i keep the monsters at bay 

The ones I can’t see that choke the air out of me..

I knew this day might come 

though I knew you were my truth.. 

there’s no comfort in waiting for the last beat of our hearts

Let it die before that starts..

But mostly 

I need you to look out and see 

you will always be a part of me..

Best of me..

I want to drink the air

Live in the sunset 

taste the water 

emerge from it new

washed clean from all I’ve seen..

layer after layer I shed my skin

Looking for the freedom of where to begin 

Only to find the same eyes pulling me back again..

What does it matter that I shed the outside gone-

my insides whirl round and round owning me strong..

I could choose to give in to all of my sins

Or reach out my hand to the one I know so well -

The best of me..

There you are standing tall

I exist because you chose to fall

Thank you for loving me through it all..

Play Me...

our melody hit every note

fine tuning its’ way for the perfect pitch that became you & I..

you sing through me 

Vibrating my heart strings 

until they hum a love so sweet 

I hear it in my heartbeat 

traipsing through my veins 

wafting throughout my being 

humming your way to my heart until it became our home 

our love is like a soldier 

standing strong 

Loyal to us - it rights all wrongs 

I learned a love song

my heart will never be empty 

for your melody always plays softly throughout me..

My soul to keep..

Your mind 

my thoughts

It mattered not..

the essence of you and i weaved a soul of love unknown..

the joy boundless

sealing us tight..

It won’t matter what is written or the 

words spoken out loud but never given..

we lived it freely 

We lived it real

until time stood still..

I couldn’t stay, I can’t pretend 

My heart went silent..

I lost my way when I couldn’t feel the beating of my mainstay..

So now I lay me down to sleep 

for my soul needs yours in order to keep..

I hope they know

I pray they see

Though life’s unfair 

we’ll find our way in every sphere..

Breath of my breath..

Breath upon my bones 

Your heart is my home

I don’t walk alone..

we meld into each other 

forming a love with a shape of its’ own..

like the beauty created by the drippings of candle wax..

each time it’s lit up, we set the sky on fire

absorbed into a sphere of our own..

I reopen you time and again..

caught up in our space i come undone

Blinded as if I’m touched by the sun..

colors so vibrant - woven tightly as one 

Like a rainbow that has only just begun..

You color my heart

You warm my soul 

feeling every shade you’ve splashed from the start

my heart is on fire 

my soul is aflame 

Forever and ever it will paint your name..

Lego heart

Lego Heart

The heart breaks just a little.. the love runs deeper still 

certain this chasm cannot be real..

I think I love you better now than all the years before..

Tattooed on my heart is 

Intense, wonderful you..

every twist, every turn 

I know you inside out..

I’ll trade my heart in exchange for yours- building each time - 

a fresh new start..

my sweet imagination is what I choose 

It somehow chases away the blues..

everything seems worse in black & white - 

I’m gonna pick up the pieces and color them in 

and when things go wrong - I’ll color again..

We’ll build and we’ll fall 

but we will stand tall 

This lego heart refuses to give in to it all..

Create with me - build with me a colorful home

and the pieces of our lego heart will have strong bones..

The heart breaks just a little - our colors run deep

We’re as bright as the sun

And dark as the night..

we are beauty expressed in our lover’s delight

Piece by piece 

Our heart will take flight..

Believe in..

Believe in...

Trust..

it’s a simple word 

yielding so much power..

It renders us fragile..

Misconstrued 

Misunderstandings

first casualty of any relationship..

It’s a slippery slope..

so many meanings to each person..

Who defines what it is..

We all know what “trust” is supposed to mean..

But life gives it our own meaning  - 

shaping and forming us in ways not expected..

trust takes on a life of its’ own filling in the gaps and holes of our soul 

So that we might feel whole..

We smile and carry on

talking ever so loudly with nothing to say

hoping it covers what’s hidden inside..

tethered and beaten 

exhausted and worn

no more taping up all the torn 

Still I will love 

Still I will trust 

For I am not a victim of all that life thrusts..

I’ll throw you my rope 

there you’ll find hope 

as we twist and turn on this slippery slope..

open your heart 

Let me inside

we will be strong

for there’s nothing to hide..

Stepping stones..

Stepping stones 

to where we’ve been 

To all we are 

To all we aren’t 

To where we’ll be 

And all we’ll see..

For life keeps going 

and we’ll keep growing 

as each step holds us up through the badder and the worse; pushing us on to the better and the good..

Unsaid words sung in my heart 

Remind me of our once upon another time when I made you mine..

Write me something beautiful was all I could say..

Because I was touched right from the start —

your markings are etched on my heart..

so let’s keep stepping on each stone that’s raised

never losing sight 

even in the haze..

moving on toward that special goal where the love of two makes us whole..

Take me there..

Empty me whole 

You will find me full 

Brimming over with love.. 

Holding it tight—I am not afraid 

I know who you are when I’m not looking 

Better yet 

Who I am when I’m with you reveals everything within and then some..

Take me there.. 

to that land of dreams wishes and hopes..

I want to know everything 

leave nothing out..

let’s walk to this place where everything else is erased 

Show me where life and love intersect

The place where our hearts connect..

I’ll never forget...

I’ll never forget...

sorrow

despair, grief

Melancholy woes,

such sadness has invaded my soul 

I cannot see through it 

I’m no longer whole

I am numb 

my mind has come undone..

I no longer feel

it’s all so unreal..

someone wake me

Shake me from this grief that has caused me to lose myself..

feet moving, arms hugging,

eyes wearily watching life that somehow keeps living..

sounds I don’t recognize escaping my mouth..

It is in the real - the now

So afraid of forgetting you 

and somehow so afraid I’ll never be able to let you go..

Words we spoke 

Plans we made..

a bonding of our hearts 

words filling me with hope..

I’ll continue to dream 

I’ll never let them die

I’ll release them to the sky..

realizing 

I can love you and still say goodbye..

Snapshots

snapshots of my heart..

a growing collage of us created from the start..

we grew like a pixel - multiplying over and  over until the image of our love covered us whole..

Reel by reel 

You play me..

unaware how you slay me..

3D explosions in my heart right from the start..

Can’t escape the moonlight of your eyes 

Your reflection is everywhere 

You burn bright within

I’ll give in

I’ll step out of the darkness and let you light the way..

we may be amateurs at this 

but the impression you left on my heart snapshot me back to life 

we have created quite a collection of where we’ve been and what’s to be..

I’m so glad to be part of this story..